Live A Little

Chapter 72

I had major writers block so i'm really sorry if this is shitty...

Ryder came rushing inside and slammed the door. "You're pregnant?" He questioned latching onto my shoulders. I gave a smile nodding my head up and down. He smiled so big and grabbed me raising me in the air. "Oh my god!" He spun he around and around until he put me down and stared me down.

"What are we going to do?" I questioned. I'm so over joyed for little Shawn to have a younger brother or sister, but I don't know what's going to happen. We can't just live here for the rest of our lives. Ryder can't drop out of school to help raise a second child, let alone to raise Shawn.

I wish all these questions swarmed my head while being so foolish and having unprotected sex. I am so stupid. Ryder's so stupid! We're so stupid...

"Let's figure that out when it comes time." "Ryder, we need to figure this out now! Before we know it it'll be time to deliver the baby." I argued. "Well Alex, I don't know what the fuck we're going to do. There! Are you fucking happy now!" He yelled back. I looked down at the ground.

"Ryder..." "No Alex, don't start this shit with me. I am so done looking like the bad guy with you. I get I was a complete asshole to you about a year ago, believe me, I know. But I'm trying. I'm trying so hard its unbelievable. You push me out of the way when it comes to taking care of Shawn. You reject my offer on getting an afternoon job. It's just fucked, Alex." Ryder heaved out.

I stayed silent letting his words sink in. He was right.

"Baby, look I'm sorry. I just- I just don't want you stressing out. After what happened a few weeks ago at your mom's, I just don't want to put anymore stress on you. Being pregnant is already enough stress on your body.  And then it puts stress on the baby, and we don't need a stressed baby. So why would you want to add more?" "Besides that, we're also raising Shawn which puts stress on us at times, it's just something that revolves around our lives freauently so I'd rather figure this outnon my own and have you sit back. Trust me babe, I'll handle this." I nodded my head giving in.

He's right though. There's so much going on in our lives, a lot in my life. I can't afford to psych myself out and hurt the baby along the way.

"Just promise me we'll get this settled and controlled before it comes time for the baby?" I questioned lookibg up at him. Ryder nodded his head up and down vigorously. "I promise, things we'll work on in the end for all of us." I smiled coming closer to him and rapped my arms around his next. "Thank you." I mumbled into his neck standing on my tippy toes. He smirked and moved his face closer to mine and placed a kiss on my lips. "Of course, now have we made an appointment to confirm that you are indeed pregnant?" I shook my head no because I went straight to calling him.

"Well we should probably get to that then." He said slipping out his phone. I nodded my head. It'so so weird, going through this all over again... But with Ryder by my side and not Jen. Granted when I tell her she won't leave my side. It feel good to have Ryder here by my side isntead  of against.

I went over towards my wallet pulling out my medical insurance card handing him it while he began to dial the phone number.

It's just so weird to think I am already the mother to one child but now I might be to a second.

I never thought that my life would turn out this way. Crossing paths with Ryder and then being on the same page. From hating each other in middle school to becoming high school sweet hearts. To being kids together watching each other grow to having our own and watching them grow.

I have to say, as much as I hated attending parites, I still do till this day. I'm glad Jen forced me to attend that dumb and wild party.

Once again I applogize. It's short I know I just didnt know what to write.