so this week, for me, is spring break. on friday, a boy confessed that he had feelings for me. this is the first time anything like this has ever happened to me. Im still in denial, and im afraid that he will find out things about me that will change his mind.
all he knows about me is the cute, innocent bookworm that acts a little sad sometimes and smiles way too much. it's the only side of myself that ive ever shown him.
im scared. i don't know how i react to anything because ive never been in a relationship before, though everyone i know has. opening my heart (or at least part of it) to someone hurts, and i feel more fragile than I've ever been.
the day he confessed, i wrote this;
Your hands are the breeze, and your fingers are feathers soft as cloud. Your wings carry my naïve heart far above the ocean's water, beautiful as a polished stone yet dangerous as a jagged cliff. My heart is new, and as of yet has no scars. please be careful with it, because i don't know how it will react to being dropped into the frozen waters below. for now, it marvels at the sight below and ahead, sometimes looking back to the past.
i can only hope that this, we, stay above the calm waters and warm currents. i can only hape that there are few monsoons, and that we do not fly over the sharp pillars of stone that would reach for us and snag your wings. I can only hope that you don't get distracted by another heart or I another pair of wings. That you do not drop me, and i will not abandon you to soar with new feathers, having only used you for the view. leaving the wisps of your love for the chill of depression.
but all i can do is hope, right?
im probably going to regret this.
YOU ARE READING
Im depressed, srry
Randomdont read if youre prone to grammatical errors, depression, the like. if anyone wants me to mark this as mature i will, but the only thing to be wary of is sad thoughts i was gonna put humor for the genre, to be ironic, but i dont want someone who's...
