remember that one guy that confessed to me?
(refer to "suprise" and "happy" if you dont remember)
this ones about him.
soooo it turns out he was just using me to feel loved. i was a rebound, like i feared.
(some context: we hadn't texted in a while, and we never had time to talk anymore, so it kinda just went awkward.)
today i found out he has a girlfriend again- i saw them kiss goodbye in the halls and they were holding hands before that.
this boy needs a girl in his life. i can understand and respect his need. as soon as he thinks a girl looses interest in him, he finds a new one.
i've tried to convince myself that it's okay. i couldn't give him what he needed, so he found someone that could. i didn't even feel for him like he said he felt for me, and i had to copy his mannerisms to convince him and myself that my feelings ever existed!
...but it still hurt when i saw him with her. i didnt expect it to, but it did. i haven't been able to get it off my mind all day.
At least i can take something away from this near-relationship; just because i can't feel romantic love, doesnt mean i don't have feelings. i know that now.
(i still wish he would've told me tho)
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Im depressed, srry
Randomdont read if youre prone to grammatical errors, depression, the like. if anyone wants me to mark this as mature i will, but the only thing to be wary of is sad thoughts i was gonna put humor for the genre, to be ironic, but i dont want someone who's...
