i feel so guilty
i was with my friend, and i was having a wonderful time
but i just slowly felt more and more drained and sad and tired and dead
but i didnt want to hurt her feelings, so i texted my mom saying i wanted to go home
my moms phone was dumb and wasnt getting my texts
i was getting desperate, i couldn't handle being like this in front of my friend
i called, and finally all my texts got through
she'd pick me up in a bit
my phone was going to die, and so my friend took it to plug it in, but i freaked out because i didn't want her to see what i'd said
she knew i was being suspicious, and she guessed what i texted my mom for.
i just made everything worse
I'm a terrible friend
i don't deserve her
shes upset and rightly so, but i didnt know what else to do
i didnt want her to think i was bored with her
i just couldnt handle the pit opening in my chest
all rational thoughts were gone
i cant think
it hurts
i want to be better for her
but i dont know if i can
i wish i wasnt to terrible
i wish i was always happy
i wish i could be everything she needs
thats all
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
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Im depressed, srry
Casualedont read if youre prone to grammatical errors, depression, the like. if anyone wants me to mark this as mature i will, but the only thing to be wary of is sad thoughts i was gonna put humor for the genre, to be ironic, but i dont want someone who's...
