is in such a bad place
her parents seem not to care
they wont pay for therapy- its too expensive
they take her friends away and isolate her at the worse times
her dad cares more about one of his students than her, and tells her frequently that she isnt enough and should stop trying, that even if she's sad she's not allowed to cry
her mom wont listen, and refuses to accept that her family is anything less than perfect. she has to be in control of everything, even in casual conversation
she cuts
she has suicidal thoughts
she's bullied at her school
she has an eating disorder that's been bad for a while, and its getting worse
her "friends" at her school are bashing her
she feels alone
i try to help
but i cant be there for her when her parents are yelling at her
i cant be there when she's smoking to forget and be happy
i cant be there when she crashes
i cant be there when she cuts, or cries, or throws up in the toilet
i cant be there helping her everyday through schoolwork and bad situations
but i wish i could
i wish so badly
but even if i could, i probably wouldn't help much at all
im always tired, and i get drained so easily, and i feel horrible for it and for being a bad friend
i dont know how to help her if i cant be there for her all the time. she doesnt have any motivation to live anymore, so if no one's there to help, she's alone and feeds herself the thoughts that pull her down further
i dont know what to do
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Im depressed, srry
Randomdont read if youre prone to grammatical errors, depression, the like. if anyone wants me to mark this as mature i will, but the only thing to be wary of is sad thoughts i was gonna put humor for the genre, to be ironic, but i dont want someone who's...
