soooooo uhhhhh imma be honest
its not been the best week of my life
or,, a good week at all really.
or a good month :/
So i dunno if ive mentioned this on here, but there are times that i go... unresponsive.
im talking like my parents will ask me a question, and i will not answer
they'll try to make me smile or laugh, and all i'll do is stare blankly at one spot, unmoving.
i try to move, or nod my head, or something, but i cant move
sometimes i cant even think.
it gets really scary.
one of the worst times i can remember it happening was i was coming home five days ago from the skating rink with my fam and a family friend.
for half an hour i sat and stared out the car window, motionless, barely blinking.
my friend noticed, and started trying to get my attention. she poked my cheek, tried to tickle me, and even picked up my arm and dropped it to try and wake me up.
nothing worked.
it used to be that i was angry, so id stop talking and responding to things. this never lasted long though. these...episodes are different than just not speaking out of anger. i have no idea what sets it off, but once i feel like its going to happen, it seems nothing can stop it.
i cant even warn my mom that i feel that way! as soon as i feel it coming on, im so drained that i already start to slow down.
so i dont know whats going on, but this... zombie thing has been happening more and more often. i dont know why, and i dont understand whats happening at all.
yaaaaaaaaaay....
oh and i havent had an appetite for like a week, ive lost two pounds, and i feel horrible for eating when i actually do.
ugh...
YOU ARE READING
Im depressed, srry
Randomdont read if youre prone to grammatical errors, depression, the like. if anyone wants me to mark this as mature i will, but the only thing to be wary of is sad thoughts i was gonna put humor for the genre, to be ironic, but i dont want someone who's...
