(WARNING; this gets kinda... creepy? and its long. 1390 words)
to anyone who sees me
tell me what you need in your life
a friend?
a girlfriend?
a husband?
a wife?
i'll be anything you want
anything-
and everything
push me to my limits
take away my right to breathe
make me your little puppet
dangle me by my string
if you want me to leave
i'll change, so its the same
skinny till i heave
crazy till im sane
all i want is to be loved
noticed, cared for, glutton
feasting on the eyes of all who see
but none ever will see the real me
she's gone, i dont know where she went
it was a long time ago when her time got spent
by someone who didn't want her
her jokes or funny jeers
so she decided to be quiet
and suddenly, through years
her soul was replaced by a yearning for attention
she lost the right to feel for others
lost the right to need
anything but eyes on her, her and only me
silent eyes, curious eyes, eyes that dont understand
but she does
she knows her gluttony and feeds on it
shes aware of how she cant feel for others anymore
she can only feel attention
and its breaking her
its breaking her
its breaking me
i cannot see
any love for me
only the eyes the eyes the eyes
theyre staring and im bathing in the judgement
it stings my skin
it hurts my head
it burns my breath
it eats me alive
and all i can do is grieve for the girl
the girl who drowned herself in her wants
her needs
her new life of knowing
its wrong its wrong its wrong
but she knows
she knows
she knows all too well
and theres one pair
one pair
YOU ARE READING
Im depressed, srry
Randomdont read if youre prone to grammatical errors, depression, the like. if anyone wants me to mark this as mature i will, but the only thing to be wary of is sad thoughts i was gonna put humor for the genre, to be ironic, but i dont want someone who's...
