"I'm a bit sad," I told him while the wind is howling towards us. Nasa veranda kami ng lighthouse. Nakaupo at parehong nakasandal ang mga likod sa puti at pulidong dingding. We both look wasted because of the eccentric sex we've done. Lukot-lukot at basa na dahil sa pawis ang mga suot namin. Edison's inside sleeve is still unbutton. While me, wala pa rin akong panty. Nakalimutan ko na kung saan ko naitapon iyon.
It's nearing dawn and the whole place was really solemn. Crickets finally know the word "sleep".
He's smoking right now and when I glance at him, he smoothly puff a circled smoke in the hair.
Hindi siya nagsalita. He inhaled again his cigarette and when he let it out in the air, I continued speaking, "I'm a bit sad because I think I hurt you. Ganito ka ba talaga? You can't have sex with me hurting you or you hurting me? It's fucking, and I think it's not making love."
"Aren't you satisfied?" tanong niya.
Damn!
"I am Ed. I am. It was wonderful. I didn't know that my body is capable of feeling that sensation. I've touch my self several times but you know, having sex with you is totally different. Not to add the fact the you yourself plus your body is really sexually stimulating. I'm glad na hindi ako napunta sa ibang lalaki. You were my first and I have no regrets with it. Iyon nga lang, natatakot ako. Kanina, while we're doing it I don't know pero habang sinasaktan kita, tila ba nagugustuhan kong nakikita kang ganoon."
"That's the essence of it."
"You mean..."
"It's a win-win situation. You find pleasure hurting me and I find pleasure being hurt by you."
"I love you Ed..." I told him. "I think I'm already crazy about you. Baliw na baliw na ako sa'yo," I added.
He inhaled smoke again. Inipon niya iyon sa bibig niya for a moment. He went near me and when he kissed me, he blows the smoke inside my mouth.
Nakagat ko ang labi ko pagkatapos mangyari iyon. It was so damn sexy.
"Tell me, what are the things you hate kanina when I'm pleasing you..."
Insinandal niya ang ulo niya sa wall. "When you started worshiping me."
"You mean the blow job?" I asked him. "Oh my gosh Ed, I love doing it to you. You're so warm, you're so good inside my mouth."
"It quite offended me."
"Okay. I won't cock suck you again." I'm sad.
He chuckled. "No, you actually can do it but just make sure to hurt me first."
I nodded. "How many times have you ever encountered sex?" I asked him.
"Including those who rape me?" tanong niya.
"Ed, I'm sorry."
"It's alright."
"Thanks."
"You're so tight. You're still a virgin."
"Yeah," nahihiyang sagot ko.
"You bleed."
"Yeah." Namula ako.
"Pakiramdam ko, may napunit. You're so huge."
He chuckled.
"I'm not joking."
"I know."
"I want to do it again Ed."
"Right now?"
"Ofcourse no. I'm tired. We're tired. I want to do it again on every places we'll go. I want to explore and experiment."
"You can have me anytime," he said.
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