The Next Stage (COMPLETED)

TWENTY EIGHT: Drown

Zach

'I love you, but if we'll not end up with each other, let's end this.'

What?

Does she want to break up with me?Pero bakit?

A lot of questions are inside of my mind, and these are one of those.

It's been a very long time since I last seen her.

And I regret the time that she wants to talk to me to fix things...the things that are complicated as sh*t.

I didn't know where she went. I have no clue. I've been texting her for God knows how many times.

I just wanted to know why, what did I have done, hindi na ba niya 'ko mahal?

Sh*t. Ang hirap kasing manghula. Ang hirap na iniwan niya 'ko na sobrang clueless.

But I know that she has a purpose for doing this, for leaving me.

I just have to understand her side, her actions. I just have to patiently understand. I didn't want to jump into conclusion.

Kasi ganun naman diba? When you commit into a relationship, one of the things that you must have is an understanding mind.

Kasi mahal mo eh, kaya kahit ano pang kamaliang gawin niya, iintindihin mo. Kailangan kong intindihin.

Tama, isasantabi ko na muna 'tong mga iniisip ko dahil ilang araw narin akong hindi lumalabas ng kwarto at hindi pumapasok.

Who cares?

Bumangon na 'ko sa kama. It's already 2 o'clock in the afternoon. I have to fix myself up. I have to be alive.

Even my reason to be alive was not here, with me.

"Anak!" Tawag sakin ni mama na kakapasok lang sa pintuan, kasama niya si dad.

Dali dali akong bumaba sa hagdan hindi dahil sasalubungin ko sila kundi dahil lalabas ako ng bahay.

"Zachary!" Tawag ni papa. Hindi ako lumingon, pero nakatigil ako.

"Where's your respect? Please bring it with you." He added.

"Respect?" Then I chuckled. Wow, alam pa pala nila yung word na 'yun.

"How can I respect the both of you if you don't respect my decisions? Malaki na 'ko, just so you know."

"Zach, tumigil ka na!" Pag-aawat ni mama. Sorry ma, but I just needed to tell the truth.

"Malaki ka na, yes. But the way you act? Hindi naaayon sa age mo. You're still acting like a kid who likes to be spoiled to everything. Tandaan mo na hindi lahat ng gusto mo, nakukuha mo." Tapos pumasok na siya sa loob.

Wow.

What do I expect from him? Laging nakasara yung isip niya, hindi niya alam na mali na yung ginagawa niya.

He's forcing me to do things that I don't even want.

"Anak, pagpasensyahan mo na yung daddy mo, he's just tired from his work, alam mo naman----"

"Tired? 'Wag mo na siyang pagtakpan, 'ma. He's always like that, nothing will change."

"Anak naman..."

"Ma, I'm sorry. But please just once, please hear me out. Since you and daddy adopted me, hindi ako humingi ng kahit ano sainyo. Kayo lang talaga yung nagbibigay, I'm thankful for that...but that's not what I needed. I need care, I need to feel loved again after my real family died. Pero what did you both do? You just ignored me and my desires as your son. Kaya please, hear me out kahit ito na yung una at huling beses...please cancel my arranged marriage." Then I walked out.