Change [Ricci Rivero, Completed]

Kabanata XXVI [Paglisan]

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You were stars

and my skies
My favorite hello's and my awkward hi's
You were my 11:11 wish
My 3 am thoughts
My unsolved mystery
and untangled knots

You were my scars and my bandages
my wounds and my damages
my blanket and my teddy bear
my glances and my everyday prayer

But they're only were's in my past
Didn't know it would be this fast
And now you're were's in my past
My lover that didn't last,
my lover that didn't last.

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Sobrang bilis ng isang taon pala. Ni hindi ko na naikwento sa inyo ang nangyari sakin fron the past 3 months after that dinner sa hotel at prom ni Elliana.

Everything fell apart kasi right after that. I lost control, I had no idea what to do, I lost track of time and my mind went out focus.

When everything became I mess, when I became a mess, I tried so hard to pick myself up paunti-unti but I was just so clueless.

Natanga ako. Natunaw ang lahat ng alam ko. Paralisado ako.

Walang specific na nangyari kung saan kami "nawala" o natapos. It was the duration of days na hindi na nagpaparamdam si Ricci. Alam nyo naman ako, hindi ko hobby na magreply noon sa kanya. Hindi ko sinasagot ang mga tawag niya, hindi ko pinapansin ang mga text niya sakin.

Pero alam nyo, nung biglang isang araw, nawala? Natakot ako, kaya pinakiramdaman ko. Sa sobrang pagkasanay ko kasi, nung nawala, hinanap ko.

Nung una halos okay pa. He'll reply kahit after ilang hours pero kalaunan?

It becames days, weeks which isn't the usual. For months, I've known Ricci. He's on his phone the whole time and lalo na pag ako ang nagtetext, he replies immediately kasi as he would say whenever Brent nags Ricci habang nagrereply in the middle of trainings daw, "this is alex the dragona, brad. hindi dapat pinaghihintay ang mahal ko!"

But I guess that love, napagod na? Haha. I knew this would happen and before I could even know how to cure and stop myself from being such a man hater and pushing him off my radar, I lost him and it sucks to know na I loved him back narin pala after he left.

I swear as I narrate this to you it still stings. Sa puso at sa dibdib? Naghihilab ang dibdib ko whenever I talk about him. Kahit sabihin nating naging kami sana pero hindi, that little speck of hope woke up everything inside of me.

He made me see the good things in life and in other people. He helped my spark my creativity, see the world differently, and love like it was not bound to end anytime soon.

He made me do all the things I thought I couldn't and now na nasa sistema ko na 'tong lahat, hindi ko alam kung paano ako magcocope sa mga kinasanayan sa lahat now he's gone.

I really don't believe na dapat kong pakaewalan ang mga kinasanayan ko with him. Everything I did with him were all good memories kaya nga I can't and I don't stop myself about missing him every now and then.