Hockey Imagines

Auston Matthews (Toronto Maple Leafs)

***Based on the song Enough by Alex Roe***

(Auston's Point of View)

Sitting in the dark all night fighting shadows

And the urge to call you up hits me like an arrow

I watched the city, lights flying as car drove on the streets below. I sat on the bed... alone. I don't remember the last time sleep came easily. As I lay down to sleep your imagine haunts my mind, our last time together replaying over and over like a broken record. Everytime my phone lights up, I pray it's you but it never is. Everytime I look at the phone... I have to stop myself from calling you. The pain driving the arrow further into my heart.

It ain't the whiskey talking or the loneliness i'm feeling

It's the memories all the little things that keep me from healing

After every game I find myself sitting alone at the bar drowning myself in whiskey hoping for some temporary release from the pain. But it never works. I try over and over again but all the memories of the moments we spent laughing and smiling... All the moments we spent just living, they never seem to go away. I can't even go to the grocery store without thinking about all the times you climbed into the cart and we ran around the parking lot, your laughter filling the air around us.

I give up all the days I got left on this earth

Cause without you I don't know what they're worth no-o

Most days I feel like I am just going through the motions. I wake up every morning to your side of the bed... empty. I would give everything up if it meant I could have you back. It sounds like I'm just whining and it sound cliche but you put purpose into my life. Now I have nothing to play for, nothing worth fighting for.

I'd give it all for you if you'd let me

This heart don't have a home without you in it no

I'd stand before you as a man who's been broken

Truer words never spoken

I would go back in time and fix all my mistakes if it meant that you'd still be by my side. I am so lost. You were everything to me and I ruined it all. I was a stupid kid. I'm still a stupid kid. You made me happier than anything in the world and I took that for granted. You were my world but I never saw it. I'd give anything for one more chance with you. I'm man enough now to admit how wrong I was about everything. I screwed up and I suppose this is the consequence. But I would give anything to have you back beside me. I love you.