LOVELY MESS

CHAPTER 1 The Fresh Start

Magnus (POV)

"Are you sure about this?" naniniguro kong tanong sa babaeng nakatalikod sa akin.

Masinsinan nitong sinuyod ng tingin ang buong kabahayan. Paying all her attentions even on the small details. I saw her head turns up and down. Bahagya nya akong nilingon na may maaliwas na mukha.

"This will do." seryoso niyang saad.

"You sure you don't want them to know?" patuloy kong tanong.

"NO" umiiling nitong sagot. "The moment they'll know about my whereabouts, malamang nandito na agad yun sila." seryosong wika niya.

Makikita sa kaniyang mukha ang pinalidad sa desisyon, which makes me sigh. Humakbang siya palapit sakin at humalik sa aking pisngi.

"Thank you so much for everything, M. I can take it from here." anito na agad din naman tumalikod.

Gulat man sa kaniyang naging tawag sa akin, nakangiti ko pa rin siyang sinagot kahit hindi man niya makita.

"Anything for you, Fhilea." sinsero kong tugon.

Bumalik siya sa kaniyang pwesto kanina. Seeing her contented with all the stuffs she has in front of her convinced me to leave her alone.

"I'll go ahead then." pagdedeklara ko. Humakbang na ako papuntang pinto.

" Cui'date"   walang lingon niyang tugon. 

 * Take care (Spanish)

Wala akong ingay na lumabas ng pinto. Diretso kong tinahak ang daan palabas ng kaniyang bagong apartment.

Sumakay sa nag aabang na sasakyan sa labas lamang ng gate.

'She called me 'M' again.'

The thought of it somehow makes me smile. I can't even remember the last time she calls me that way. Maybe it was last year or the year before that. I can't barely remember. I shrugged my shoulders on that thought. It doesn't really matter anymore. What's more important is what's happening right now. How eager she wants to go back in this place is something I couldn't imagine. It was never been on her bucket list as far as I know. That girl have been traveling a lot for the past three years. She have been to a lot of places to explore and she have me with all of her trips. It wasn't for the luxury or such, it was something she needs for the time being. 

 It was last month when I received a call from her, asking for a favor.

"I want to go back to Philippines." wika niya sa kabilang linya. Hindi ko muna siya sinagot. Inisip ko kung may idudugtong ba siya at the same time, inisip ko din kung anong naisipan ng dalagang ito para bigla na lang magdesisyon ng ganun.

 "I want to study again." patuloy niyang tugon. I made a sigh na sinigurong hindi nito maririnig. It's still a puzzle to me how quickly can she make a decision like that. It's also a puzzle how that sudden decisions worked out so well.

"Ok. We'll be there by next month." tangi kong sambit. Tunog ng putol na linya lang ang narinig ko mula sa kaniya.

Thinking of her sudden decision occupied my mind that entire  day.

 And now, seeing her contented, have me thinking that's she's somehow, trying to start her life again. With a clean slate. Mas pipiliin ko ng ganito siya. I rather choose  the girl I was with earlier than the girl I'm with for the past three years.

The girl with no words. The girl with no emotions. The girl who has her own world. No one can blame her though. Not me, not anyone else. Having a chaotic and painful past that she had? Some people could've just taken away their own life. And if I were about to compare her  to a person who has the same past that she has, they'll give up. 

But her? You will wonder how can a simple and soft looking girl can  surpassed all of it. You will never see any trance of weakness on her after everything that happened. She really is tough and I guess we never made a mistake having her in our family. 

But that past made her cold. She is not the same girl I adore before. She's no longer the joy of the family. I remember once when I asked her if how will she deal with everything, her words marked deeply.

"If I need to build my walls higher than the usual, I will. The Fhilea you all know, is dead and gone."

That is her words that scares the hell out of me. We never want to lose her and I will do everything in my power to keep her sane and with us. Not on my watch.

She reminds me of the Vow I made years ago. The Vow to give her everything. The Vow that whatever she needs, I will provide. No matter what it is. No matter where it be, I will oblige. Even if it leads us on going back to this place.

And now, how long was it?

 I think it was five years ago since the last time we're here. Naasikaso ko ng lahat ng maaari niyang kailanganin bago pa man kami makarating. From her school, her home , her papers, lahat lahat na. Siniguro kong lahat ay maayos na wala pa man kami dito. Dito sa Pilipinas kung saan nagsimula ang lahat. 

There is just one thing that bothers me. The name she will be using. Wala akong ibang maisip na dahilan. Hindi ko magawang magtanong. At hindi ko din alam kung dapat na itanong pa.

'She really is starting over again.' isip isip ko.

That makes me clueless  at the same time thrilled. This will be a new phase of her life na susubay-bayan ko. 

'This gotta be good then.' 

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