it hurts most when you watch it happen.
no, i don't mean watching someone die right in front of your eyes
i mean watching yourself slip.
do you know what it feels like to slip through your own fingers?
do you know what it feels like to teeter and totter on the edge of a cliff?
do you know what it feels like to watch the earth crumble beneath you and break away,
knowing you're next?
do you know what it's like seeing yourself fall to floor,
slurring words and mumbling broken promises?
do you know what it feels like to watch yourself die?
do you know what it feels like
to not live your life in third person?
i don't.
not anymore.
i can't remember i can't remember i can't remember icantremembericantremembericantre—
