don't let them know you're falling
don't let them know you're dying
don't let them know you're crying
don't let them know you're trying
don't let them lose control
don't let them lose their way
don't let them become half of you
don't let them succumb like you
don't let them break themselves
because of you
don't let them shatter
don't let them die
don't let them be in your control
you decide if they live or die
you pull the strings
you contort and twist
don't let them call you
sick
you need help
but you refuse to do anything but deny it
don't let them know
don't let them know
you don't want to get better
don't let them know you're slipping
again
don't let them know he's pulling your strings
again
don't let them know you're back under his control
again
don't let them know he's grabbing you
again
don't let them know
don't let them know
don't let them know you're suffering
don't let them know the water is above your head
don't let them know
you'd be better off dead
don't let them know he's messing with your head
again
don't let them know
you're turning it into poetry
again
don't let them know
you're romanticizing it
again
don't let them know
don't let them hear
don't let them see
don't let them feel
don't let them touch
don't let them understand
don't tell them
about the demon's kiss
don't let them know
you're falling in love with him
again.
don't let them know
that your mind is not your own
it's the only thing you've ever known
but darling, his claws are weeping into your skin
but darling
you're under his control again
don't let them know
you do his bidding
don't let them know
he wasn't kidding
don't let them know
he's throwing punches
don't let them know
he's moving you
don't let them know
that he taught you everything you know
kid, don't let them know
don't let them know
don't let them know
don't let them know
don't let them know you're black and blue
don't let them know you like it too
don't let them know you deserve it
don't let them know don't mind it
don't let them know it feels good
to be on autopilot for awhile
don't let them know
don't let them know
don't let them know
don't let them know the stitches are ripped out
don't let them know you're dying you're bleeding out
don't let them hear you crying out
don't let them hear you shutting out
don't let them
don't let them
don't let them
darling don't let them
kid, don't let them
dont let them
and hide it with a mask of upturned gestures
something that shows you're brilliant teeth
and soft lips
don't let them see the way he runs his thumb over your lips
don't let them see how effortlessly he gains control
don't let them know you're feeling bad again
for him
don't let them know you're desperate
don't let them know
don't let them know
don't let them know
don't let them know
that maybe he's a puppet too
he's not.
don't let them see
your poetry
don't let them see
the way your tears
take the form of literacy
don't let them know
don't let them see
that you're only half of what
you could be
don't let them know
don't let them see
what you would become to be
as cruel as lucifer
as cruel as your puppeteer
the man and lucifer
what's the difference anymore
he gives me panic attacks
he gives me anxiety attacks
and that cannot be turned into poetry
you cannot make those things sound pretty
you shouldn't.
tell me why
i cant stop to think and cry
tell me why
my eyes are dry
tell me how i managed
to be the only cactus
in this desert
tell me how i managed
tell me how i managed
tell me the story
of Pinocchio
