Fiercely

Chapter 5

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The next day was a lazy day. Kahit wala akong gana ay pumasok ako sa school.

I just feel like my mind's not working properly. It seems so blank!

Really, really blank!

"Miss Monteniel!" Napatayo ako nang tinawag ako ng isang terror professor namin.

"Assignment?" Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay.

Anak ng puta! Putangina! Lintek! Bwiset! Halos maubos ko na ang mura sa aking isip.

Nakalimutan ko! Gusto kong pektusan ang sarili ko.

Nazie, naman eh!

Dahan-dahan akong naglakad palabas ng classroom. Ang rule kasi sa klase niya ay: "If you come in his class unprepared, then you better not come."

I am not prepared and so I should not attend this class today!

"Where are you going, Miss Monteniel?" His voice boomed in the whole room.

Napatingin ako sa aking mga kaklase. Parang mas malungkot pa sa Biyernes Santo ang mga mukha. This always happens in this class. Everyone is just scared of this terror teacher.

He's always angry that I think he is just one of the people who lived in bitterness.

I sighed. "I'm sorry, Professor Velasco, I don't have any assignment," I said.

"It's not the answer that I want, Miss Monteniel," he looked at me, furiously. "I asked you where are you going?"

"I'm going out," sagot ko.

Mariin niya lang akong tinitigan na parang isa akong tanga para sa kanya. "Who told you?"

Napasinghap ako. He's mad at me? Then I'm mad at him, too!

"Didn't you said that if we come to your class unprepared, we better not attend your class?" I told him.

"It won't be that easy, Miss Monteniel. I wouldn't let you just leave. Sending you out of this class is an easy punishment," he said.

Tiningnan ko lang siya. Ano'ng gusto niyang gawin ko?

"What do you want me to do to you, Miss Monteniel?" Tanong niya.

Hindi ako sumagot. Kinuyom ko ang mga kamao ko. He said it so maliciously that I just want to punch him in his face!

"Answer me, Miss Monteniel!" Umangat ang boses niya.

Nagtiim-baga ako at napahalukipkip. "Then mark me absent!" Paghahamon ko.

"You even resorted to an easier punishment," sabi niya. "It's too easy, Miss Monteniel."

Ano'ng gusto niyang gawin ko, ganoon?

"Why don't you give me a punishment instead, Prof? Tatanungin mo ako kung ano'ng kaparusahan ang dapat kong danasin, tapos magrereklamo ka? Bakit? Ano bang gusto mong gawin ko? Lumuhod sa harap mo? Maglupasay? Magmakaawa? Ano?!" Hindi na ako nakapagtimpi. Umakyat yata lahat ng init sa ulo ko na gusto ko na lang sumabog. "And don't fucking eye at me maliciously! Akala mo hindi ko alam kung gaano ka kamanyak, lintek na matanda ka!"

Nanlaki ang mata niya at dinuro-duro ako. Parang nawalan ng dugo ang kanyang mukha. Namutla siya habang nakahawak siya sa kanyang dibdib.

"Insubordination!" He accused. "Go to the disciplinary office now!"

"Fine! No problem!" Sagot ko.

Just as I was about to get out, one of the Student Council showed up by the door.