Millions [Poetry]

unfocused concherto

unfocused concherto

september30twenty18

and my heart's worried.

I'm sidelines, we've been over it. the supporting cast in the show. just sidelines, sure, someone's favorite -

but not the favorite of.

because the drama's not being controlled by me - just sitting, watching, leave me be. and the production's twisting up inside my brain - eyes out front, just gone insane.

these songs are ringing, I've got the narrow spotlight. catch me rosy staring at the center of attention, who's staring at the things he wants to prove.

and I'm sure he'll break my heart, we all believe it.

but all that I really want is for him to see it - undo.

I mistook you for yellow, but that wasn't true. and now unfortunately - you are blue.

I've got a million worries plaguing, and now you're just exacerbating, got a million plus one things to say to you.

and you too...

so I've colored you unfortunately blue.