When there's only me and you - Tyrus

cyrus - chapter eighteen

The quiet lull of the hospital hallway had become very comforting since tj mom had to go back to work and caring for her other children I sat with tj normally lying next to tj on the bed but sometimes lounging in the little couch thing they had in the room. My parents would come by every so often and try to get me to come home they never succeed but they kept trying tj mom came every other night,

I found an old film camera in my basement so I was playing around with it I was planning on putting them in a scrapbook and storing them away until I found them again with my children

I sat on the end on Tj bed he was reading and I was taking photos off the room I had gotten a film roll of 24 photos

"How many kids do you want," Tj asked me

"Two maybe three how about you," I asked him he had to stop and think about the question at hand

"I never thought I would have kids you know I didn't have a father for most of my life so I never thought I would make a very good one you know," Tj looked away "but when I woke up and the doctors were telling me how close to death I really was I thought about everything I still wanted to do"

"So you want kids," I asked I did know Tj was so weary of raising someone else

"Yes I have no freaking clue what life is gonna do next I thought I was such I good driver I would never get into an accident but I did I have no clue if we'll still be together in ten years but right now, right now I know I love you and that's all that matters" Tj smiled pulling me closer to him I placed the camera down on the edge table then moved beside him I could hear his heartbeat it made me feel okay his heart was beating and there, he's alive and I'm there with him. 

"let's try forever," I sighed as he touched my hair running his finger through my hair, 

"what is forever, what counts as forever," Tj asked me kissing my head 

"till I can't hear your heart beating I will love you,"  I told him taking his good hand in mine kissing the back of his hands  as we lay in the quiet, "when is your discharge planned," I looked up at him School started back in a week and I would have to go without him 

"two weeks then Ill have an assessment and they'll go from there," he explained "I gave the role of team chapiton to Justian I don't think Ill be better in time for the season," he told me he was looking better we both were the little cuts that I had healed over I didn't walk with crutches much anymore mostly just on long walks not that  I took many long walks. 

"we'll go watch them, I'm sure Justian will do well with coaching," I nodded as my phone buzzed it was just my stepmom so I elected to ignore it just a little bit longer 

"Im sure ill just miss it I loved doing it now I can barly walk," when they did there first assesment of Tj he stumbled and he was barly walking he couldnt move around for very long since he had stiches on his lungs I hurt him to breath to heavaly, I knew he would never say it but fi they came in and told him he could never play basketball again he would wish the stupid car crash had killed him. 

"youll get better" I told him carefully I didnt want to say anything to upset him he didnt say anything more he just lay still 

"when do you go back to school," he asked 

"next week, the doctuer had to wright me a painkillers note so I couldd keep it in my bag and I had to promise I wouldnt sell it to other kids and crap like that you know," I explained 

"apperntl theyll bring my work here and crap like that I think my mother is postioning to keep me home after I go home like all year, I dont really want that you know, I mean its patched up now but that much time alone with my dad, I dont know," he sighed I knew there was a reason he was acting off today but if his mother had pithed that idea there must have been some backlash on the event, 

i wanted him to come back to school try and get back to normal but his mother she was, she was acting diffently i know she almost lost her child but I think something else is going on there,

"I think she doing this because I was talking about Applying to a collage across contry," he told me I was actually also going to apply to a collage acroos the the contry, It felt right to go far away from the small little town where I was raised. 

"so she flipped and tryed to home school you," I asked I seemed like his mother to pull something like that. 

"first she blamed my dad then you then she tryed to bargen with me to stay in state so I could drive home on week ends useing you when I said that you were likely going out of state she blamed you agein had a small cry fit then whent home where she probley fought with my dad," he retold events that had likely happend this moring I had some rehab and I slept in so I hadnt gotten to his room untill about one pm

"I though you had ones in state to," I asked He  had told me of about four he was looking at only one out of state three he had in state 

"thats what I told her but she was already crying by then shes is something else,"  he grinned his mother had a flare for the dramitc so she tended to get hytarlca like this for seeminly no reason

"only two more years for you," I sighed my last year of high school would be the first year he was in universty witch scared me a whole year in classes with out him 

"three for you," he reminded me it smeeed alot longer when you thougt about it but it wasnt to far away " youll be here and shell use you as bait to get me to come home," he shook his head thinking of the things his mother would get up to

"dont I know it, " I smiled 

"I love her thougth," he huffed then I said what I had wanted to say to him since the crash 

"I love you, Tj"