When there's only me and you - Tyrus

TJ & Cyrus - chapter thirty-five

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Tjs apartment was actually pretty nice cramped and slightly crowded but nice, there was an older looking grey couch and a matching loveseat with a short black coffee table and a matching tv stand with a flatscreen opposing it. from the living room set up, you could see they had a dining table and the opening to the kitchen which looked just as he had thought an old rusted looking place. the grey couch was agent the opposing wall that had a hallway oping of which I guessed was the halls to there bedroom. 

"I'm going to put the coffee maker on getting changed and then we can talk okay," TJ told me as he disappeared into the kitchen, 

I sat down on the arm of the sofa trying not to track any mud into the apartment I should have begged buffy and amber to come up with me, but I was revealed that his friends hadn't been here. so I had done a little bit of stalking of his two friends,  

Joshua Dean or joshie was born in Queens he was the youngest of three (which is why I think he calls himself Joshie even though he is eighteen years old) his oldest brother is eight years older then him well his other brother is only two years older than him, but that brother (whose name is Aaron,) has Aspergers and its one the reasons Joshie is kind of estranged from his family. he dates boys who are more stereotypically masculine that could hold him, (to witch his friends say he has daddy issues) he liked to take photos with his boyfriend kissing the base of his neck. 

okay maybe it was five days of me not leaving my bedroom and stalking these two guys on anything i could find them on. I bet you they know nothing about me.  

Connor Dines Born in califrona near the beach also has two siblings a brother and sister his brother a hollywood director who was receanly married and his sister was a prinpal with two young kids, they where rather close and his parents where high up CEOs,  he tended to date who ever was closet according to his friends on twitter. he was increable intellagence and had graduaded from highschool two years early.  

they where both better then i was, they would both be better for TJ then I was. 

TJ 

he was in my living room the man that I still loved was right there, he looked so awqard as he was perched on the arm of the couch amber had flirted with the guy who lived above us to get he had his legs streached out real long to keep his shoes on the door mat. 

I had a pounding headache, Conner and Joshie dragged me down to the student bar so they could get drinks then ended up hooking up with each others I didnt even drink anything it was just so loud in there. 

I was not expecting Cyrus Goodman to be in my door way when I woke up this moring, I guess amber had since she wasnt here, I beat you anything shes in the dunken donuts even though we had a coffee maker that made better coffee then that place did. 

as I watched the coffee brew I looked over at Cyrus he was looking down at his phone but i examed him as if i had never seen him before, his hair had grown a little bit, he was less well kept his shirt was messy and his jeans where ripped, not the intenal kind but ripped in the way that he had fallen one to many times. 

"um Ill just quickly get changed one sec," I said as I passed infront of him my room is qutie a bit of a mess, but I grab the nicer clothing that i think has been washed in the past three weeks. 

Black ripped jeans (only ripped at the knees) and an old short sleave sweater I messed with my hair for a second then I took a deep breath and joined Cyrus in the living room. 

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it was clear he put little to no effort into his outfit choice but he still managed to take my breath away, it was this sweater he wore in 9th grade and I wanted so badly to fall into his chest and have him hold me for just a moment. 

"so um hows life up here?" I ask I dont really know where to start and I want him to talk first, I dont want to break down. 

"its fine, i just study and hang out with some new friends how are things back in shadyside," Tj asks me, 

"Good I suppose," I shrug looking down at my messy shoes why hadnt I thought to dress better for once in my life care about what shoes I was wearinf for five minuets and I was so self involded i hadnt relized that I was just staring at my shoes in slinace until TJ speaks up 

"why are you in new york?" he asks his eyes have that look like the time I had hurt him, I didnt want to hurt him. 

"because I feel really bad about the way I left things and it wasnt untill I got here that I thought that maybe showing up here would just make you feel bad or upset you and I guess i'm saying that I want I go back to being with you but I get it if you dont love me anymore," I rambled and he walks closer to me tilting my chin up very carefully and he kisses my forhead then the briged and then I kiss his lips lacing my fingers around his neck and he puts his hands on my back and when I pull away I place my head into his shoulder. 

"I still love you," he mumbled out and we dont move we just stay there on the arm of his old grey couch and he smells like him and the scent of the building with just a bit of alchole. I missed this so much.