When there's only me and you - Tyrus

Cyrus - chapter thirty-eight

TJs room was cluttered but still not a complete mess, my eyes were drawn to a wall of papers and photo, but one stuck out to me. 

the picture was of me next to it there was a quote on a piece of purple construction paper witch in a cursive type font read  these words

'there is joy in knowing someone for a moment, only a second in the grand scheme of things, you don't know everything about them but they change you and you change them in some way'  under the words was a signature of what looked like the name Josh, 

"you like the wall," TJ asked handing me coffee in a star wars mug, that had been chipped and stained from the many uses that it had gone through. I wondered whos mug this was normally. 

"its a lot of photos, and quotes," I comment as he puts his arm around me, then I take a small sip of the coffee he hadn't forgotten how I liked it, mostly sugar, 

"its mostly just random things joshie and Conner say when they're drunk or hung over," he laughs, slightly, taking a deep breath then a sip of his coffee, I saw that his coffee was almost just black with a light splash of milk and probably a bit of sugar.  

"they say profound things then," I reach out to touch one of the photos, it was a polordie of TJ and Conner making stupid faces, TJ had his nose scrunched up and his eyes closed tight, Conner had his tongue sticking out and his eyes rolled up, it looked as if he was pretending he was dead. 

the caption on the photo read, 'TJ and Conner being dumb' January 23rd, 2023, it overlapped a quote that read, 'romance comes and goes but partners in crime die together,' 

"they do strangely, Joshie has this thing about knowing people for a short time and conner has a thing about well, that's not inpronte" TJ shrugged at his fingers ran over the partners in crime quote, it was sighed by Conner most of the quotes had one of the boys signers on them, one on silver paper read 'if the heart wants what it wants then does my heart like to watch me suffer'  it made me think for a second, who had hurt conner to make him think like that "How has everything been at home and stuff," TJ turned back to me 

"I guess it's getting better, you know for a group of therapists, they seem to have a problem going to therapist them selfs" I give a small shrug into my coffee cup, 

"well I guess that probably comes with the job," TJ lets out a small laugh, as he takes a piece of tape from a little cat dispenser he had on his much to the messy desk to stick the photo back to the wall, 

"they seem to be working through it by trying to solve all my problems," I sigh thinking about the therapy sessions they've been giving me over the dinners I couldn't escape, 

"so its middle school again," He gives me this small knowing look, I forgot how much he faces told everything once you knew him well enough, 

"yeah, and the first year of high school," I roll my eyes 

"Oh  I forgot about that when they would bring their notebooks to dinner every night and jot down what you said," he laughs out, covering his mouth as if its the funniest thing hes ever thought of, and throwing his head back the way he does when he laughs. 

I can feel the blush raise up my cheeks, as I start to laugh too, I forgot how good he made me feel when we were together 

"Oh gods I forgot about that too, that was awful," I covered my mouth to as I sat down on his unmade bed that creaked under my weight 

"It was pretty bad, you started having dinner at my house every night just so you could get out of it," TJ was still laughing when I see it, its up on the highest conner but I would remember it anywhere 'i don't wanna get hurt,' underneath it is a photo of me from eighth grade, I pull my eyes away from it to TJs light green ones 

"that was back when we first started going out," I think back, I have buried these thoughts down in my head but the memory flooded back in like I had never lost sight of them 

"yeah, my mom loved cooking for you though," TJ shrugged as he sat next to me nudging my shoulder 

"she still invites me over for dinner some times," I looked down but nudge him back and look at his knee, 

"she told me about that, I told her to stop bugging you, but apparently the kids were asking about you too," TJ tells me as I look up at his lips, 

"I was surprised to hear you had just flown halfway across the country, you always told me you weren't one to run," I tell him because I really want to say, I'm surprised it was so easy for you to leave me behind' 

"to be fair it wasn't my idea, amber dragged me out of bed and said it was and I quote, 'no longer healthy to lay in bed and watching dan and Phil until my phone battery dies then got to sleep and repeat'" he imitated the very girl who had got us into this mess, or I guess it was me, or both me and TJ not having great compaction 

"what was your defence agesit that," I joke 

"I wasn't just watching dan and Phil, she then countered that looking at old texts wherent that much better," he laughed slightly

"she's a smart one amber," I point out 

"she loves to play dumb, but she's stupid intelligent," he rolls his eyes then stretches his neck and I see these two little freckles that I really liked kissing when we were together, 

I decided that this time I'm not going to hold back so I reach up and kiss him right there at the base of his neck, laughing softly, he raises my chin up and kisses my lips, 

I forgot that he always tasted of coffee and vanilla but I missed it so much. I missed everything about him. 

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so I'm not dead just tired and have horrified writer's block, I'm gonna end this book in about two chapters and then heavily edit it, so look forward to that I guess 

- Broken <3