When there's only me and you - Tyrus

Cyrus - Chapter thirty

I'm curled up in TJs hoodie its this big oversized blue sweater that he hasn't worn since 7th grade and I think it been in my closet longer then it had been his, I still call it TJ for some reason and fluffy old PJ pants as I watch crappy romcoms on my laptop, I'll have to get up to go to school eventually the summester has just changed. My phone was shoved under my mattress somewhere it just kept going off so I tucked it away out of sight. it stopped going off after a while it probably died after all.

My mother warned me that I would have to be going to school the next day, she had been leant because I didn't have to go to exam review day which I probably have a hundred text messages about missing. so I get up I push off the blankets that have sheld me from the harsh world for a couple days. I stretch my legs and I reach to touch the ceiling. it's so dark in my room I dont bother to pull open the blinds or turning on the lights, I just stand alone in the dark. I have no conspect as it what time it is. i think it might be late in the night the house it quite.

Running my hands through my hair I pick up the knocked over box, I cant qutie rember what I did but I knocked it off its spot on the dresser.

the first thing was a photograph, one of me and TJ at the fair two summers ago, hes kissing my cheek as i give just the goofes smile I can possbly give. we where happy then. the next idem I pick up is a bright pink stuffed bear It had my name sewn into it. I dont wanna think about it, TJ had give it to me. I should have known this was the box I knocked off

'love TJ'

I had labed the box to keep all the little things TJ had given me in

I rush to shove everything back in I cant see clearly now anyways since my eyes are full of tears again.

I think I cryed my self to sleep because I wake up on the floor holding the Cyrus bear some how it smells like him, witch makes sence that I fell asleep he always helped me fall asleep. I rush to get ready since My mother starts yelling up the stairs that I need to get on my way to school.

andi ambush me when I get there.

"hey how are you doing," she askes, her eyes are full of remorse like shes done something thats caused me to be hurt.

"Im fine can I sit with you at lunch I dont wanna see TJ," I ask but I dont see him standing with the guys and they all look rather upset to. justin expcally, Ive never known any of them to cry but they all look on the verge of tears as Justain speaks to them, his voice doesnt carry far enough for me to here but what ever the news is its bad.

"you dont know," andi asks brushing back her hair then avoding eye contact

"dont know what" I ask just as the bell goes off,

"I have to get to class you know ms daybell isnt one to be kind to late studants" she scraches her neck then takes off what ever she knows that I dont is bad.

I pull my phone out of my pocket its my study perido first so I have the time to go throught the texts

theres over a hundred from andi mostly just asking if im okay and what happend to me then a couple after someone told her.

a few from buffy I think she feels bad about the event to since she was the one who started all of this,

then theres one from TJ
Hey, so I just wanted to say I was leaving for New York in a couple hours, so this is a goodbye I guess, because I have to move on, I do sincerely hope that you find happiness,
- Love Thomas James Kippen
Ps you can come get your stuff from my room any time the spare key will stay under the porch.

I know what Andi couldn't tell me I know why the basketball boys are upset hell im upset I want this to all be a lie I want to see him pass by the library and give a stupid grin as he passes.

It never happens he's been in New York for five days now,

And there's not a god damn thing I can do about it.

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Yep I made my self cry sorry folks