First Love Never Dies

Chapter 55

9PM na, napatingin ako sa lugar kung saan ako dinala ng pag-iisip ko. Dito? Nandito ako sa tinutuluyan ko dati, nung ako pa si Beth, nung kami pa ni Renzo.. pumasok na ko sa bahay at nagikot-ikot. Nagflashback sakin yung mga araw na magkasama kami ni Renzo sa bahay na to. Nagflashback sakin lahat, simula nung nagkakilala kami hanggang sa iniwan ko siya. Napaupo ako sa sobrang panghihina, sa sobrang pagsisisi..

"Bakit?? BAKIT! Bakit ko hinayaang mangyari sakin to, mahal na mahal ko pa din siya. Kung hindi lang ako umalis, kung hindi ko sana iniwan si Renzo, kung nanatili lang ako bilang si Beth.. kung nagawa ko lang sanang ipaglaban si Renzo, edi sana hindi ako nasasaktan ng ganito ngayon. Mahal na mahal pa din kita Renzo. Mahal na mahal...."

Napagod na ako sa pagiiyak hanggang sa nakatulog na ko sa may kusina. Paggising ko umaga na. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko bang pumasok ngayon.. hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko bang makita si Renzo ngayon. Bumalik na ko sa condo na tinutuluyan ko. Hindi maganda ang pakirampdam ko ngayon. Sobrang taas ng temperature ko, hindi ako makabangon sa sobrang panghihina. Tinawagan ko si Ate Karen para sabihing hindi muna ako makakapasok ngayon.

"Ate Karen"

"Oh bakit Thalia"

"Hindi ako makakapasok ngayon, medyo masama pakiramdam ko eh"

"Okay ka lang ba? Pupunta ako dyan, uminom ka na ba ng gamot?"

"Nako ate Karen wag na, okay lang ako."

"Sure ka?"

"Oo, salamat"

Nagpahinga na lang ako habang lumilipas ang oras. Hindi ako makatulog sa sobrang dami ng iniisip ko, hanggang sa may biglang nagdoorbell. Dahan dahan akong bumangon para buksan yung pinto.

"Oppa"

Napayakap ako kay Suho-oppa ng malaman kong siya yung nagdoorbell.

"Why are you here? Don't you have any plan?"

"Ofcourse I have but I should prioritize you first"

"How did you know I'm sick?"

"Karen called me, she's so worried that's why she wants me to check you"

Inalalayan niya kong makabalik sa kama. Nagluto siya at pinainom niya ko ng gamot. Habang binabantayan niya ko, bigla na lang akong nagpasalamat sa kanya.

"Oppa, gomawo"

"For what?"

"For.. for being beside me all the time"

"Ofcourse, you're like a little sister to me"

"Thanks for understanding me"

"You should rest"

"Oppa, I know that you saw it, you saw what happened in the rooftop. Im sorry... Im sorry for not keeping my promise."

"I'm sorry.."

"For what?"

"I'm sorry that I tried to stop you from being happy with him.. with that guy. I thought that it's for the best, I thought that you will be more happy if you forget him but.. but I didnt expect that this will happen to you."

"Oppa.."

"Do you love him?"

Napahinto ako sa tanong ni Suho. Biglang tumulo yung luha ko, hindi ko mapigilang maging malungkot..

"I love him.. I love him so much but its too late, he proposed to another girl yesterday.. i know its my fault, its my fault.. I left him without any reason. I made him lonely for about six years, and now Im back again, trying to be part of his life again.. trying to ruin his perfect life again"

"Dont blame yourself, I'm the one who pushed you to do that"

"No oppa, you did that because you love me and you care for me and you just want me to be happy. I understand that."

"Go for your heart Thalia"

"What do you mean"

"Talk to him"

"I can't, its too late"

"But you have to tell him everything, you have to explain him what happened six years ago. You have to tell him who you really are."

"But.."

"Yeah, maybe he is engaged, and later he will be married to that girl that is why you two need a closure, you can't move on without clearing your mind"

"Sometimes having no closure is the closure" (credits to Sarah G for this line)

"We all know that you need closure for you to start again. Look Thalia, I know you love him and it will take some time to move on, but not having a closure will make it harder for you,for you and Renzo.

Napaisip ako sa payo ni kuya Suho. Tama nga siya, kailangan namin ni Renzo ng closure, kailangan kong sabihin sa kanya ang lahat. Kailangan ko ng magmove on, kailangan ko ng kalimutan siya... si Renzo. Kung siya nga nagawang kalimutan lahat ng meron kami.. ako pa kaya..

FORGET

by Demi Lovato

Did you forget that I was even alive?

Did you forget everything we ever had?

Did you forget, did you forget, about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?

Did you forget what we were feeling inside?

Now I'm left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song

You can't forget it.

So now I guess this where we have to stand

Did you regret ever holding my hand?

Never again

Please don't forget, don't forget.

We had it all.

We were just about to fall even more in love

Than we were before.

I won't forget, I won't forget about us.

But somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song

You can't forget it.

Somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song

You can't forget it.

And at last all the pictures have been burnt.

And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned.

I won't forget, please don't forget, us.

But somewhere we went wrong

Our love is like a song

But you won't sing along

You've forgotten

About

Us.

End of Chapter 55