My Scientific Love (PUBLISHED BOOK UNDER HOWLING WOLF'S)

MSL #31

(Kindly listen to The Scientist by Coldplay for feels.)

Gone

"Simon, please! Let me go! Let me help my parents! I'm begging you! They're my parents! I can't bear to watch them die! I can't! Please, Simon! I don't want to lose them again! I hope you understand... how painful it is to live alone because... I have no parents! It hurts, Montrearde... it hurts... I don't want to feel that loneliness again... without a partner or someone to hug when I come home... I can't bear it... do you understand? It hurts to see them like this... I can't lose them again... I can't. Just thinking about leaving this island without Mom and Dad makes me ache... so much. I can't... I can't let this chance slip away to see my parents again. I don't want to let Granald enslave them again. I don't want to leave this island while they're still here or if they die.

"I know you're brave, Camael... but your bravery makes you disregard everything around you. Many people will worry about you."

I didn't listen to Simon's words. I just closed my eyes in pain. I wanted to break free from his embrace, but I couldn't bear to let Simon follow me. He was too injured. I sighed deeply.

If I ran away from Simon, he wouldn't hesitate to follow me. I didn't want him getting hurt any further. He had already suffered so much. Enough, Simon. This is my fight with my parents.

I couldn't bear to see him hit by bullets or thrown by robots again. I couldn't handle it. Simon had done so much for me. I needed to do this alone. No one else's help.

"Think of that. You're wise, remember?"

"Simon! Let me go, please! If it were your parents there, you'd do the same, wouldn't you? You'd do the same, Simon! Let me go, please! I want to go home with Mom and Dad! Please! Let me go! Let me go... I hope you understand me now! I don't care if they told you to protect me or not to let me go, but Simon... think about it! If Pandora were there, wouldn't you help her? Wouldn't you, Simon? Because she's your parent! The one who gave birth to you... the only people who truly know and love you... and you'd just let them go? Damn it, Simon! I can't bear to lose my parents again because you don't know how hard it is to live alone... without parents helping you grow up right!"

"If you have a father and siblings... I have no one, Simon! Just Janus! You don't know the pain of being teased by classmates because you have no parents during meetings! You don't understand what it was like when they weren't with me! Family day... I used to love it, but I couldn't go... I couldn't... because I had no parents! I never even experienced having Mom tie my hair... or Dad dropping me off at school! There are so many things I wanted to experience that I couldn't because I had no parents! I know... I know this might seem trivial to you, Simon... but the pain I feel when I remember not having Mom cooking for me... Dad teasing me or asking about me... I never experienced that because they weren't there when I needed them the most! It still hurts, Simon... it still hurts so much even now! I want to be angry with them, but my longing for them overpowers me! My whole life... my whole life, I convinced myself they were dead, but... but they're here, enslaved by that demon! I kept convincing myself every day that they were dead because I was only hurting myself by hoping to see them again!"

I continued.

"I almost... almost wished at every well... I dropped countless coins into wishing fountains just to see them again... even for a moment... even for a brief time because, Simon... I miss their care and love... I'm still envious of those who have complete families. I know this might seem trivial to you, but it won't be easy for me to start over again! This is my chance, will I let it slip away? Will I just let them disappear again... completely? I can't! It's like I'm killing the hope that they're alive in my heart! I can't do it again... I absolutely can't. I'll do everything I can to be reunited with them and make us whole again! I'll do everything I can to leave this island... without anything missing and with us all together! Please, Simon... please... let me go. Don't you trust me, love?"