My Scientific Love (PUBLISHED BOOK UNDER HOWLING WOLF'S)

MSL #38

Blood

When I returned to my wheelchair, I acted as if nothing had happened, as if I hadn't heard anything from my room. Rylea came back just in time.

"Camael, I couldn't find it... sorry." I smiled at her.

"J-Just forget it."

When I entered my room, Rald was already sitting there. Janus carried me back to my bed. I tried to calm myself. I felt like I was about to explode. I really wanted to know the truth, but I needed to stay silent for now.

I knew that if I spoke up, I would burst out immediately. I ignored them, wanting to calm down before I spoke.

I prefer to distance myself when I'm angry because that's when I tend to say hurtful things. If I'm angry, expect that I'll definitely lash out. If I'm upset, give me time to think. I need to calm down first because I'll be the most heartless person you know if I can't control myself.

"Camael, do you need anything?"

I want to know the truth, Rald. Whether they are really alive or not.

"Nothing. I just want to rest. Can you leave me alone for a while?"

One by one, they left. As soon as they closed the door, the tears I had been holding back started to flow. This is what I hate about myself when I'm angry— instead of talking, I cry.

All the pain I had inside was released through my tears. Why can't they just tell me? I deserve to know the damn truth. I've been missing my husband and family for months, and yet I still have no news.

"I want to escape from this painful life. I desperately want to rest now... to rest forever! I want to sleep and never wake up again." I tried to stand up, and though I wobbled and walked slowly, I opened the window. I wanted to feel the wind.

"Help me, please. Heal me. I can't take this pain anymore."

I felt my knees trembling. I was probably struggling under the weight of my baby, but before I could collapse, I felt someone catch me. I saw Caldrin's worried eyes. He carried me back to my bed.

"Is there any problem, beautiful?" He always called me "beautiful," and I didn't understand why.

"Nothing, I just miss your brother."

I saw Janus with a worried expression.

I could only remain silent. No one attempted to speak until I could no longer hold back my curiosity.

"I heard everything." Their shocked faces greeted me. I wasn't surprised they were shocked.

"Tell me everything. I deserve to know the truth."

Rylea moved to approach me, but I signaled her to stop. I wanted to hear the truth before I spoke to them.

"Camael..."

"I said I want to know the truth! Don't call me by my name!"

"You're pregnant," Janus reminded me. I ignored him.

"Who cares if I'm pregnant? I can handle any type of pain!"

"Camael, it will affect the baby!"

"Just tell me, for heaven's sake! I want to know the truth! I deserve to know because they are my family! Simon is mine! Not yours! I have more right to know because my husband and family are the ones affected! Do you understand me?!"

I couldn't stop crying while speaking. Every word I uttered was accompanied by tears.

"Just tell me! I've been longing for them for months! Since I got pregnant, I haven't heard any news from them! I am desperate for the truth, please... please! I'm begging you!"