The Stoic And The Beast

Let Me Date Your Daughter

Alicia's POV

I stood there staring at myself through the foggy bathroom mirror. I was frozen. Was I happy? Scared? Mad? Sad? I didn't know. A thousand thoughts were racing through my mind.
I just had sex. Twice! I'm not a virgin anymore. Oh my God. I'm not a virgin anymore!  I screamed internally. I hugged the towel around me tighter. Unsure if I felt good or bad about it. I looked at myself in the mirror again.

Do I look any different?

No.

Do I feel any different?

Not really.

Besides the slight pain I felt deep in my pelvis, I felt fine. He was gentle like he promised. At first. Until I begged him for more. Replaying those moments in my mind made my knees buckle and I felt a twinge in my groin. What am I freaking out about? It was amazing. So amazing. Luke was amazing. I hugged myself and smiled. Then suddenly Jake popped in my head. And my heart sank. I could have just as easily been with him but he stopped me. He wanted to wait. Feeling those intense feelings deep inside me made me want to have sex. But not just with anyone. Someone who loved me.

Oh God, what have I done?

Suddenly guilt wrapped around my heart and squeezed. Luke said he loved me. Did he really mean it? I could feel love for him too. The first time I laid my eyes on him it was like I was pulled toward him. Like my soul was meant to belong to him. I really could feel honest to god love pouring out between us when we kissed. I didn't feel bad about what we had done at all. I was... Happy. But was it just because of the heat of the moment? Do I still feel that way? Now that we've done what we've done? And he was so fucking good at it. I am so stupid to think he was just as inexperienced as I was. He knew exactly what to touch, where to go, what to do. And what to say. My stomach flipped at my thoughts. And my happiness burned up in a puff of smoke. I was now angry.

And then what he... he did in the shower. How stupid could he have been? So fucking stupid! What if he gets me pregnant. Didn't he think of that? I balled up my fists as my anger turned to rage. Luke did this... Tears welled in my eyes. Blurring my vision. Of all people. Luke did that to me? I half expected Jake to be so careless and cruel. But not Luke. I burst through the bathroom door in my towel. Dripping wet and stomped over to him as he was pulling up his jeans. Tears were pouring from my eyes. I let go of my towel and pounded my fists at his chest. My towel slipped off as my body shook but I didn't care. I was pounding on him and crying so hard I couldn't breathe.

Luke wrapped me in his arms and pulled me tight against him. Sheer panic was strewn across his face. He was caught by surprise and completely unprepared for my attack.
He hugged me and kissed me on my temple while I beat away at his chest and cried.

"Alicia... Alicia.. please stop! What's wrong? Talk to me!" He begged.

"You... You know what you did. You.. you... You tricked me." I sobbed as I kept snacking at his chest with my hands.

"What do you mean, Alicia? What do you mean I tricked you?"

"You said all those things.. You tricked me. Then you... you.. in the shower." I blurted out incoherently through my sobs.

"I didn't trick you Alicia I swear. Please calm down. Please listen." He pleaded with me to calm my self.

He sat down with me in his lap and hugged me tightly and rocked me as I sobbed. I tried pushing him away but he was too strong. My will to hate him eased as he rocked me from side to side and brushed my hair from my face. He pulled a blanket around me and then hugged me tightly again. He rocked me and kissed my face as I melted into him.