The Stoic And The Beast

Making Up Is Hard To Do

Alicia's POV

When I woke up the next morning I felt recharged. I was a little sore from sleeping halfway off my bed. But I felt pretty good. The events from last night made me feel a whole lot better. I wish I hadn't avoided Luke for so long. after he had explained everything I felt pretty stupid. Today is Monday. I have orchestra. Which means I will see Luke and Jake today. Everything is okay between Luke and me now but I have to find a moment to talk to Jake. I need to apologize to him. He may not care anymore since it seems he has moved on. He stopped texting me two days ago. Perhaps that's a good thing. But either way, I should apologize. I picked up my phone and opened the chat box belonging to Jake.

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Me: Hey Jake, can we meet somewhere to talk before class? I have something I need to say.

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I padded into the bathroom and began my morning hair and makeup routine. Then I grabbed a teal sweater and a pair of blue Jean's from the closet and put them on. Just before I headed downstairs for some breakfast my phone chirped.

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Jake: You really wanna talk to me? Is this some sorta trick?

Me: No Jake. It's not a trick. Meet me at the fountain, please. If you wanna talk.

Jake: Of course I do! I'll be there at 7:00

Me: Okay, see you then.

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I head downstairs and pop some Eggos in the toaster and pull the tub of cream cheese from the fridge. My mind drifts off to a million thoughts as I stand by the toaster and wait for them to pop up. I let out an exasperated breath at the thought of having to talk to Jake. I had nervous butterflies floating around in my stomach. But it needed to be done. If I could forgive Luke, it wouldn't be fair to not forgive Jake as well. I like them equally the same. They each possess their own good qualities.

Jake is the typical bad boy whom I know I could feel safe with. He gives me the impression that he's a lot sweeter than he lets people see outwardly. Not to mention talented at just about everything he touches. But on the other hand, Luke is thoughtful and so very sweet. He is the romantic type that I absolutely adore. He is going for the same goals as I am. To be a musician. But he's also an artist and a really good cook. So he's told me. I could imagine myself being fed breakfast in bed. Eating his homemade French toast and did I mention he's like a tea fanatic? He knows about all types and different ways to make them. I prefer tea over coffee. We are like a perfect match.

The only downside is that they're best friends and I could potentially ruin that between them. If I choose one over the other it could spell disaster. Or I could lose them both. Luke admitted that he knows Jake has an interest in me. And I've confessed that Jake and I have kissed. Ironically, he didn't seem too bothered by it. At least if he was, he didn't let on. He was more upset about Jake not telling him about it than the fact that we had actually kissed.

Jake, on the other hand, is not aware of Luke having feelings towards me. And he definitely doesn't know that Luke and I spent the night together. Jake probably would not handle it well if he found out. He's got a temper that I dare not provoke. But I have to at some point come clean. I just hope that I don't destroy the friendship between them. If that happens I would feel like a real bitch. I'd never be able to forgive myself. I wish there was a way to keep them both and they remain good friends. Who wrote that ancient rule that you can only love one person at a time? I'd like to give that person a stern talking to. I also need to tell Luke that I intend to talk to Jake. And figure out a way to get Luke to agree on telling Jake about us. I've got my work cut out for me. I'm shaking from my thoughts when the Eggos spring from the toaster. I spread some cream cheese on them and sit down at the empty kitchen table. As I munch on my Eggos I text Luke.