the next few days shay and i weren't talking. i thought the silence was driving me is insane but I was so stubborn that i didn't want to make the first move and talk to him first. i know how stubborn shay is and it is virtually impossible to even think about him apologising at all. that's just the way he is. so i went around my normal day to use without him in my life... which was strange. like really really strange. i didn't like it at all.
11:17pm.
From Mrs. Mathers:
"hello isabella, how are you? i'm sorry this is late but i hope you're not asleep. i was wondering if you know where shay is? i haven't heard or seen him since last night. i'm extremely worried. xx"
it was then that i realised i needed to stop being so stubborn and talk to him first.
To Shay:
"hey"
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"where are you ?"
To Mrs. Mathers:
"hi, i'm fine thankyou. i haven't actually spoken to shay for over two days now. we had a little fall out /: x"
From Mrs Mathers:
"i'm sorry to hear that dear. you're the only friend of his that he still talks to you see. he seems to have lost interest in his old jock ones... :( xx"
To Mrs Mathers:
"oh. i'm sure he's okay. he's a strong guy. x"
From Mrs. Mathers:
"of course! i just wish he would let me in sometimes. i could always help him ... xx"
To Mrs Mathers:
"i know what you mean tbh x"
From Mrs Mathers:
"oh well... goodnight sweetie. sorry for disturbing you xx"
Seen 11:30pm.
i didn't actually hear back from shay until the next morning. my thoughts and dreams all recurred about him. i was extremely worried, thinking of nothing but the worse possible things that could have happened to him. i know he's strong, i know he's a tough guy who won't take two shits from anyone... i just. i care about him a lot. i wish he could see that i wasn't a bad guy.
2:38pm.
From Shay:
"hi."
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"did ya miss me?"
To Shay:
"is this real life ? is that really you shay stinson mathers ?!?! well of course i missed you idiot, where the hell have you been hiding ?!"
From Shay:
"been in hiding i guess. things got too much. i couldn't deal with a lot of things and i didn't like how i was bringing down everyone. i thought if i went away, as if i never existed people would forget about me."
To Shay:
"that is the most stupidest thing i've ever heard in my whole entire life and if you were here next to me right now i would slap you silly. i miss you, I WOULD ALWAYS MISS YOU DONT YOU DARE FORGET THAT FFS."
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"where were you even hiding ?"
From Shay:
"yeah sure but you're probably the only one to miss me, that's only because you're so whipped over me ;)"
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"somewhere. a bus shelter."
To Shay:
"dream on. why there ? why couldn't you just come round mines ?"
From Shay:
"seeing you with your family so happy... i didn't want to spoil that like i do with every happy family."
To Shay:
"what ?"
From Shay:
"isabella, my parents are getting divorced. i can't decide with who i want to stay with. i can't chose one over the other. it's too much."
Seen 2:45pm.
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yeah tbh idk why i put the gif on the side it just makes me smile idk
