My Downfall | Killers List #3

Overdose

Umji was able to quickly get off the plane before anyone else. She brought little to nothing with her. She also didn't plan on staying for very long. Besides, she figured Yuju would lend her some stuff. She came to Europe only to wish Yuju a happy birthday in person. She had to be the bigger person here since Yuju obviously wasn't going to. Umji was the one who made the mistake anyways.

"Excuse me. Where can I find Yuju?" Umji asked the lady at the front counter. It looks like learning English did come in handy after all.

"I'm sorry who?" The lady leaned forward to hear her better over all the other people talking.

"I'm looking for Choi Yuna, do you know where I can find her?" Umji asked again.

"I'm sorry we don't have that kind of information" the woman apologized. Umji was obviously lost but the woman didn't really know how to help her.

"Ah I see. Thanks for trying to help me" Umji smiled at her before walking away with a puzzled expression. She had no idea where she was going. She felt so lost.

It helped that she knew English, but this place was nothing like Korea. She had no clue what she was doing at all. Many people walked pass her, giving her weird stares but some asked if she needed directions since she was evidently confused.

She angrily sighed and sat down at the nearest chair. She grabbed her laptop from her small bag and logged in. She had a long password just to be extra cautious. She did all the usual stuff and found Yuju's location within a minute. She took a photo of the address and shut her computer off and put it back away in the blue bag.

"Alright" Umji sighed again. It was going to be a long ride again. She was in a total different city then Yuju. The cab was going be at least sixty to one hundred euros.

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"Yerin what are you doing here? And how did you find me?" Sowon looked at her suspiciously. She wondered if maybe Eunha told her but why would she? Was she trying to expose their secret "relationship?"

"Sowon we need to talk" Yerin looked extremely angry.

"Is this about...the other day?" Sowon began to panic. She didn't want to talk about this right now, or ever. She preferred to keep her sex life private, but didn't everyone?

"Just sit down" Yerin took a seat at the table across from Sowon. Yerin wanted to try to keep the both of them calm while talking about this.

"Yerin I know what you're here for and honestly I really don't want to talk about it. You don't need to worry about me and Eunha, we're allowed to do what we want" one of Sowon's worst fears was not being in control and if that's what Yerin was about to do—take control of her and the situation—she wasn't going to let it happen.

"Sowon you can't go around having sex with Eunha while she is married and just gave birth to her first baby" Yerin facepalmed. She already knew Sowon wasn't going to change her mind. Once she decided on something she wouldn't change her mind.

"I don't care if she's married or has a child. I still deserve her" now Sowon was angry too.

"Sowon what you're doing is so wrong. What are you not understanding? How could you do this when you know exactly what it feels like to be cheated on?" Yerin never understood why people cheated, but to do this was a whole other story.

"Because he deserves to feel what I felt! It's unfair!" Sowon unexpectedly rose her voice.

"That's not how this works. He didn't know you were dating her. He is a nice guy, trust me. If he would've known that Eunha was seeing you then he would've never tried to get together with her. Sowon you can't blame him. He knew nothing about you and Eunha's relationship" Yerin tried to explain as best as she could but she knew how stubborn Sowon could be. She still tried, and she was going to keep trying for Eunha and Eunwoo's sake.

"I don't care. He deserves to feel the pain that I felt when I found them together. He deserves to know what it feels like sitting in your room crying your heart out because you think you're not good enough! I wasn't good enough! I'll never be good enough!" Sowon slammed her fist on the table. She tried to hide her face so Yerin couldn't see her crying but it was pointless.

"Sowon please listen to me. Just give me a minute. I know you love her, you always have. But there comes a point in time where you just need to let it go. I know what it's like dwelling over something you want but you'll never get. You're only digging yourself a deeper hole. You have to find something else. If being around her is too much then leave. Go as far away as possible. You can't ruin their marriage like this. I understand that you want him to feel the pain you felt, but it's just never going to happen. He didn't know you were together, but you do know that they're married and have a child and that's why you need to end this. I know she ran away with him and gave him everything you wanted, marriage and kids. I know Sowon, I really do. This can't go on. You need to end this" Yerin spoke calmly and softly. But towards the end she began choking up. Even she was getting a bit emotional over this, but it was only because a distant memory of something else that she suddenly remembered. She understood all the reasons why Sowon was doing this, she just didn't know if she could stop her or not, or if Sowon could stop herself.

"I need her damnit!" Sowon turned around and swung her arm. She threw the glass cup at the cabinets. Yerin waited for all the shattered glass to hit the floor before she began to speak.

"No Sowon, you want her" Yerin knew exactly what it was like to want someone but to know you could never have them. She knew a little too much about what it was like.

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Umji quickly paid the driver and grabbed her stuff before getting out of the car. Umji looked up at the tall building. It was an apartment complex that didn't look very decent. It wasn't bad, it was just a little trashy and old. Umji could see a bit of mold growing on the sides of the wood. But it was all Yuju could afford right now.

Umji grabbed a tissue from out of her bag and used it to open the door instead of using her actual hand. She could be germaphobic at times, especially at places like this. It definitely wasn't the worse she has seen. Though she still felt bad that Yuju had to be living here for awhile. Soon Yuju would be rich from being a lawyer.

Umji asked the lady for the room number and a key, claiming that she was Yuju's sister so she could get a key to get inside. She quietly made her way up the stairs, making sure to look at everything from the old walls to the uncleaned windows that she could barely see through. She sighed as she unlocked the door to Yuju's room.

"Happy birthday!" Umji burst through the door but no one was there. She looked down and found Yuju's shoes so where exactly was Yuju?

Umji averted her eyes to the table which had the most different types of alcohol bottles she had ever seen. Without even counting she could tell there was at least more than a dozen bottles on the table. She checked each bottle and of course each one was totally empty. There was no way she would've been able to drink this much in just a few days so obviously she had someone else here with her or she had drank this much in about the span of two or three days.

Umji shook her head in disappointment. She then walked into the living room where she found Yuju laying on a bed with her arm hanging off the side of the bed. She obviously wasn't just passed out drunk. Umji immediately noticed the bottles of pills set out on the table and more than a few used needles scattered around her body on the bed and the floor. That's when Umji realized that she wasn't just drunk. She had overdosed.

"Yuju?" Umji rushed to her side and tried to shake her body to make her wake up. Yuju didn't move a single muscle.

"Yuju!" Umji slapped her as hard as she could. She even tried to tickle her feet which Yuju hated so much.

Umji had never grabbed her phone so fast to dial 9-1-1. She told them everything she knew which wasn't much. She hung up and entered the worst panic mode she had ever been in. The hospital wasn't far from here so they should be there in about two or three minutes. In the meantime, Umji kept trying to wake her up.

"Poor Yuju" Umji picked her up and carried her down the stairs to get her into the ambulance faster. She could hear the sirens getting closer but it still felt forever. Yet there was no forever without Yuju.