My Downfall | Killers List #3

The Pain to Happiness

"Get out of my way" Sowon pushed Umji behind her so she could get into her messy room.

"Where are you going?" Yuju asked as she watched Sowon throw a luggage bag on her bed.

"I'm leaving, what do you think?"

"And where to exactly?" Asked Yerin while she watched Sowon throw some clothes into the bag then zip it.

"I'm leaving with Kim" Sowon shortly replied, rushing down the stairs.

"You're still seeing Kim?" Eunha asked. Her voice was barely heard since she was behind all the girls running down the stairs.

"Why wouldn't I be?" Sowon put her shoes on and unlocked the door.

"Aren't you going to say goodbye?" Eunbi asked, sounding a bit sad.

"No, I hate all of you" Sowon swung the door open and smiled when she saw Kim waiting in the car.

"Wait but your car is-"

"Bye bitches. Keep the car, I won't be needing it down in the insect museum" Sowon said sarcastically. She threw her car keys behind her and Umji jumped foreword to catch them in time.

"But you hate insects"

"You guys are insects!" Sowon yelled back as she got in the car with Kim.

"Call us?..." Yuju said quietly. She already knew the answer she'd get in return.

Sowon rolled down her window and put her middle finger up as the two drove off with smirks plastered on their faces. Once the two were out of sight Sowon rolled up her window. She tried to keep a smile on her face to seem happy for Kim but she couldn't do it.

"Did something happen?" She asked.

"Our plan didn't work" Sowon frowned.

"Why not? What happened while I was gone?"

"Eunha didn't get jealous, she's actually getting married the day before her birthday. We failed" Sowon didn't want to think about it but she couldn't erase it from her mind. It kept coming back to haunt her.

"Well at least we don't have to be in fake relationship anymore. My boyfriend was beginning to get suspicious" Kim chuckled. She was just glad to finally not have to act like someone she's not. Fake relationships were never a good thing.

"So they know we didn't have sex right?"

"I never got the chance to tell them. I will if I ever see them again" Sowon shrugged and stared out the window.

"Well let's get you home. You could use some rest" Kim looked over at Sowon with a sad smile. She couldn't imagine what Sowon was going through. She hoped she would never have to go through the same thing.

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"What just happened?..." the group stood by the door in complete shock.

"Sowon...left us" Eunbi's voice cracked.

"Great. Way to go Yerin. Who are you going to drive away next? Me?" Yuju rolled her eyes. She couldn't believe Yerin right now. Yuju would never talk to anyone like that.

"Everyone shut the fuck up!" The group jumped back a little when Yerin suddenly shouted.

"I think we could all use some alone time. Just go to your rooms and do whatever you want. Eunha I think it's time you go home now" Yerin opened the door and gestured for Eunha to leave. She tried to do it politely but it seemed like Eunha was unwelcomed.

"Call me if Sowon stops by, ok?" Eunha said as she was rushed out the door.

"I'll be in my room" the group split up into their own rooms except for Yuju who followed Umji to her room.

"Are you still feeling sick?" Yuju asked. She stood awkwardly in front of the closed door with shaky hands.

"I'm fine. You can go and relax now" Umji smiled. She felt bad for making Yuju take care of her the last few days. Little did she know that Yuju enjoyed taking care of her.

"Are you sure? I have no problem watching over you"

"Yuju just go. I'll be okay on my own for awhile.

"Alright then..." Yuju didn't want to leave but it looked like she had no other choice.

"Or you can stay if you want" Umji shrugged.

"Really?" Yuju turned around, her cheeks a bright red. She slowly made her way towards the bed.

"Why not? We're friends after all, arent we?" Umji had some sort of mischievous look on her face.

"Right" Yuju cautiously pulled the blanket over her.

Umji unexpectedly rolled over so her body would be pressing against Yuju's. "I'm glad you decided to come back" she whispered in her ear.

"Why?" Yuju wanted to keep the conversation going in order to subside or at least distract herself from the butterflies she was feeling in her stomach.

"I missed you obviously" she rolled her eyes.

"What's to miss about me?"

"Are you trying to be annoying?" Umji lightly slapped Yuju's chest then unintentionally left her hand resting there.

"I was born this way" Yuju smiled, gently playing with Umji's hair.

"You were born special" she looked up at Yuju.

"How so?"

"You're extremely sexy, funny, weird, and you-"

"Do you ever think that maybe...maybe one day me and you could be more than just friends?...like in a relationship?" Yuju became serious. It was true that Yuju was young at heart and seemed childish at times—most times, actually—but when it came to love something seemed different about her. You could see it in her eyes. She was passionate, and love was no game to her.

"What are you saying?" Umji became frozen stiff, her hand still resting on Yuju's chest.

"I think I might be ga-"

"Sh. Let me think for a second" Umji closed her eyes, trying to recall what the eldest member of the group had said a few days ago. "Sowon was right" her eyes widened.

"About what?"

"You. What were you going to say?"

"I was saying that I think I might be gay. But more importantly-"

"Sowon was right!" Umji had the biggest and brightest smile on her face.

"Can you stop interrupting me please?" Yuju pouted. "But more importantly, and I can't believe I'm saying this to you already, I think I have feelings for you" Yuju couldn't even believe herself. She wished Umji's cute reaction would've lasted longer but sadly it ended quickly. But the end brought a beautiful beginning, one that Yuju wasn't willing to trade for the world.

"Yuju I knew it!" Umji was squirming with excitement.

"How?"

"Doesn't matter!" Umji used her feet to push herself higher so her eyes were level with Yuju's eyes.

They sat there for a few seconds, staring right through each other's souls. The room was filled with Yuju's loud and excessive gulping. She wasn't sure how to stop being so awkward.

And finally Umji remembered what true happiness felt like when she cupped Yuju's face and had finally experienced what people like to call "a first kiss."