The Playgirl's Game

Kabanata 39

"Bye mom. Go home when I give birth to my baby. Dad, you'll go okay? Mom force dad." Bilin ko sa kanila. Natawa si mommy sa akin at tumango.

"I will. Now go and take care of my grandchild. Wag ka masyadong magpagod lalo pa't kakaospital niyo lang."

I kissed them goodbye at inalalayan na ko ni Zac.

Kung kahapon ay talagang bulgaran ang inis ko kay Zac- o Ezekiel, ngayon ay hindi ko na siya tinitignan na lang. I will melt. I know I will. I will talk to him but not yet now. Just- not now.

Hinawakan niya ko sa aking siko para alalayan. I didn't flinch, I just let him. Pagkapasol nga sa kotse ay hinayaan ko siyang tumabi sa akin.

Tahimik kami, the driver turned the music on. Napaface palm na lang ako nung marinig ang tunog.

You're the one that never lets me sleep
Through my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
You're the one that I can't wait to see
With you here by my side I'm in ecstasy

Wala sa sarili ako napapikit. Though I heard him sighed. Papatigilin ko na sana ang kantang iyon nang marinig ko siyang sinabayan ito. My heart raced unimaginably.

"You're the one that I can't wait to see....With you here by my side I'm in ecstasy...I am all alone without you...My days are dark without the glimpse of you...Now that you came into my life I feel complete...The flowers bloom the morning shines and I can see...." pumikit ako upang damdamin lalo ang kanta. Let me go back to where we're used to be.

"Your love is like the sun that lights up my whole world...I feel the warmth inside...Your love is like the river that flows down through my veins...I feel the chill inside.."

Every time I hear our music play
Reminds me of the things that we've been through

He stopped singing. May kung anong pagkadismaya ang naramdaman ko pero dineadma ko ito. Bakit hindi ko ba narealize noon na kaboses niya si Zac?

"When we...get there, will you introduce me to our daughter?" Piniga ang puso ko sa tanong niya. I don't know how but I heard the longingness in there. I remembered when he said he felt like 10 years of our daughter's life was stolen from him. I ached.

In my mind I can't believe it's true
But in my heart the reality is you
I am all alone without you
My days are dark without the glimpse of you

"I will introduce you to her." simpleng sagot ko. Tumango naman siya sa akin.

But now that you came into my life
I feel complete
The flowers bloom, my morning shines
And I can see

"What's her name?" Pahabol niyang tanong. I smiled in sadness when I remembered how I named her.

Your love is like the sun
That lights up my whole world
I feel the warmth inside

"It's Chyler Leigh." I said. He nodded, trying to absorb it.

"Chyler Leigh." He breathed.

My heart stopped beating the moment I heard him utter her name. Pakiramdam ko ay naging emotional ako. I longed to have a complete family because I had one.

Your love is like the river
That flows down through my veins
I feel the chill inside

We let the music fade into the morning. Mukhang malalim na ang iniisip niya. Wala sa sarili ko siyang tinignan. I felt a wave of pain sinked in when I saw him cry. Sinubukan kong itaas ang kamay ko para aluin siya pero hindi ko kinaya, I just faced the other side of the car.