Break The Best Friends

Chapter 22

Have you ever been in a situation where you want to run away from everyone and lock yourself inside your room, punch someone, yell at someone, stop everything happening around you and feel numb – all at the same time.

I was feeling just that way.

And let me tell you something, it is not the best feeling to have. It is confusing as hell and my head felt like it is going to burst anytime now. I had a feeling that this was only going to get worse from now on.

I wanted to run all the way back home from here and lock myself inside my small room so that I can bury my face inside my pillow and cry as I wished. I didn't want to cry in front of this idiot that I used to call my boyfriend and give him the satisfaction of knowing that he can still get a reaction out of me.

I wanted so badly to punch someone and that someone here happened to be the asshole of an ex-boyfriend that I have or even myself. I should not have bothered to know what he was going to tell me. I shouldn't have respected him and agreed to talk to him in the first place. This is all my fault.

I wanted to yell at someone just to take my frustration out on them. I guess that is going to be poor Luke because he was having my arm in a steel grip and it was beginning to annoy me a little. I was scared to open my mouth though, to even snap at Luke. My lips felt tight, pressed together in a thin line as if they were just stuck together by strong super glue.

I wanted to stop the commotion that was going on around me. Everyone around us had stopped whatever they were doing and were now whispering among themselves while hungrily watching our circle for gossip as Luke and Axel glared at each other, having some sort of stare thing going on between them. Ryder looked completely lost as he watched between Luke and his brother, not knowing exactly what he had to do. The only thing that was stopping him from doing something irrational was Kyra and her restricting hand that she had over his arm.

Theo looked furious, to say the least. He would surely punch the living daylights out of Axel if Luke doesn't. That's a really good thing. Sarcasm. River was doing his best to not let his cousin lash out and make the situation anymore worse than it already was. Why bother restraining Theo when Kade is all set to make this situation worse now? I have known Kade for a long time now, and if I know him as well as I think I know him, then the murderous look in his eyes is an indication that he is not going to let walk Axel away from here without bashing his head into something – something like the wall.

Axel though, looked like he could care less about Theo who can very well beat him to a pulp, or even Kade who can very well bash his skull. Axel had eyes only for Luke – is it only me, or did that sound romantic – as he glared at him with full force.

Luke was still clutching me to his chest in a very tight hold – possessively and protectively. I was standing so close to him that I had to place my chin over his chest to look up at him. Luke's face was a mask of ferocity as he glared at Axel. The look in his eyes was so familiar yet so unnamable. It looked as though he was trying to give Axel a warning just through his eyes and by the looks of it, he does not like whatever reply that Axel was giving back to him through his.

Luke looked down at me, breaking his stare war with Axel and his face immediately softened. "Are you okay?"

Am I okay?

I was feeling so much right now. There was this tingly butterfly, that wouldn't stop parading my stomach since the moment he kissed me. The butterfly is not the cliché butterfly though, this butterfly was just parading around to make me lose control and break down here and now.

I was feeling angry that this idiot thought it would be fun to just walk up to me and kiss me just like that. I was feeling betrayed that he would do something this stupid when I trusted him enough to talk to him alone when everyone else I had known, everyone who was close to me was against that very idea. I was feeling scared that something big is going to happen now that Axel decided to be his jerk self before my friends and kiss me like the idiot that he is. I was feeling disgusted that my body still reacted to his kiss by sparking a shiver down my spine when our lips touched. I felt like crying just because I didn't know what else to do in a situation like this.