Laurenttius Series #1: Taste of Her Vengeance

Chapter 29: Anger

Ruthless

There are two things we need to learn.
To know when to give up and to know when to fight.

I gave everything to a man in a short period of time.

Ang mga bagay na madaling nakukuha ay mabilis na nawawala. And maybe that's the reason why the destiny set us apart.

Life isn't fair. Just imagine, ikaw na yung sinaktan at pinagkaitan ikaw pa yung magdurusa.

"That's enough, Ruthless" tinawanan ko si Maven ng kunin nya ang shot glass sa aking kamay.

Nasa bar counter kaming pareho.

"W-will you stop...?" I asked, sinisinok pa ako ng kaunti.

I'm nor drunk, nakainom yes but I can still recognize Maven. So I'm not totally drunk.

"I'm just trying to protect you ,Ruth"

Hinagod nya ang likod ko habang napapayuko na ako sa counter.

Umiling ako at mapait na ngumiti. Why did everyone keeps on saying they will protect me? But end up.....hurting me?

Hindi ko napigilan ang luha sa aking mata.
Nanginig ang labi ko. I can't hold back my tears.

 "I..just want to forget, bakit hindi ko magawa Maven? Why does the memories keep on coming back? Pagod na pagod na akong masaktan. Why can't I just be happy? Don't i deserve happiness?"

I asked him. He just stared at me for a while at inipit ang hibla ng aking buhok sa aking tenga.

"You deserve everything, Ruth. You just need to wait. Alcohol won't heal anything...but time will"

"I want to forget everything..."wala sa sarili kong sabi, not minding if someone will overheard our conversation. Not minding if umangat na ang maiksing dress na suot ko.

"You will,not for now. Kailangan mo pa yung sakit."

"H-how dare you..."suminok ako at umiling uminom sa basong inagaw nya "say that to your boss?"

Nginitian nya ako,or I'm just really drunk because I'm seeing things that impossible to see.

"There's no such things as failure, pain isn't failure but instead its a lesson. Did you get me? Kung ang sakit ay tinuturing mo pa ring pagkatalo at pagiging mahina mo then you will still feel it. Because it supposedly make you stronger and fearless. Hindi ka nyang iiwan hanggat hindi mo naiintindihan ang dahilan"

Hindi ko pa din maintindihan....

Tumango ako at humikbi, nagpunas ng luha at hinila sya.

"Kung ganon....dance with me"

Hindi sya nakapalag ng hilain ko sya sa maingay at magulong crowd.

Then I realize, maybe I'm really drunk. This is the first time I ask Maven to dance with me.

Sumabay ako sa malaswang kanta, ni hindi ako nahihiya sa hunk personal body guard ko.

I just wrapped my hands in his neck. Matangkad sya sa akin luckily I'm wearing a 6inches heels.

Napabuntong hininga lang sya habang pinapanuod akong sumayaw sa ritmo ng maharot na musika.

Nagkakabanggan kami ng nasa tabi ko but I don't mind.

"Dance. With . me, Statue!" I teased him.

Medyo pasigaw pa nga dahil sa ingay.

I can smell his manly perfume na humahalo sa alak na ininom namin.

Umiling sya at bigla akong hinapit para iiwas sa grupo ng nagsasayaw na kalalakihan sa likod ko.

"Be careful"he whispered on my ears.

Napaiwas ako ng tingin cause it was awkward as fuck.

Napapikit ako ng Mariin nang mahalimuyak kong muli ang pabango nya ay ibang tao ang pumasok sa isip ko.

Hinawakan nya ako sa baywang at inangat palapit sa kanya.

He slowly wrapped his big arms on my waist , then we swayed slowly.

Noong una ay pinagtitinginan kami. Who wouldn't? We are dancing in the middle of wild dancers. At ang sayaw naming ay sweet dance!

Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard
You know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive
We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still

"Parang tanga tayo" I murmured

"We're not, remember what I told you earlier?"
Umiling ako dahil nakalimutan ko naman na talaga.

"Tsk. Stupid, I said you deserves everything. That's why we are here...breaking the norms. Because you don't deserve to be just like every other girls in here dancing like a wild animals"

He's crazy! I thought but as the time goes by.
Napasandal na lang ako sa kanyang dibdib and just like us every couple in the bar is now dancing so sweet. Pati ang DJ ay nadala,changing the music into a love song.

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone
Wait for me to come home
Loving can heal
Loving can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know (know)
I swear it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of ya
And it's the only thing we take with us when we die
We keep this love in this photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Our hearts were never broken