Destiny & Distance

55°

—Morning everyone -I smile as I came into the kitchen-

—Morning, Chris -Sara and Diego answered, Luciana only smiled, I'm beyond sure she didn't know what I said-

Gabriela's family were on the kitchen having breakfast, all of them greeted me and continued to eat their breakfast, Gabriela didn't even peaked at me, she just continued to prepare herself breakfast, but I couldn't take my eyes off her.

—Babe -I walk to her, rubbing her lower back- good morning

—Good morning -she says almost in a whisper without taking her eyes off the food she was making-

—How did you sleep? Do you have to work today?

—I slept well, what about you? And yes, I do have to work today

I could notice she was acting all strange, even a blind man could have, she was kind of distant and she wouldn't even look at me in the eyes, now I can't help but think that I messed it up by proposing her to have kids, I should've waited, I'm just... I shouldn't have rushed things even more than I already have.

—Can't you call in sick? -I pout-

—I'm making you breakfast too, I didn't know at what time were you going to wake up but I wanted to leave you breakfast already done

—Thanks my princess -I kiss her shoulder- so, I'm free today, can you just call and say you're sick?

—That's irresponsible, you know I don't like that -she finally looks at me in the eyes-

—I know you don't but you wouldn't do it often, plus, I don't know when am I going to be free again, I want to spend the day with you

I try to speak as low as possible since we weren't alone and this was a conversation between us only but I don't think her family would be paying attention to us, they were speaking something I couldn't understand in Spanish.

—I'm sorry, baby, I wish I could just stay all days laying on beside you, but I have responsibilities and I can't just set them aside -she turns around and pecks my lips quickly-

My feelings were all over the place now, and not only my feelings but also my anxiety. My hands were beginning to sweat and my heart started to bump faster, her distance makes me think that I fucked things up, I should've waited but I'm always an impulsive fucker, now she wants to be away from me and I can't blame her, what I proposed her was a huge commitment and I was a moron by even saying it when I know she's mentioned several times in the past she's not ready for it... Now I just fucked everything between us

—It's okay -I say almost in a breath-

She turns around and gives me a weak smile, I don't even return it and go grab some water, trying to swallow the lump that was forming on my throat, my hands were shaking and I was praying no one would notice, but the odds were with me as soon as I realised they already had finished their breakfast

—We're heading off -Diego says standing up-

Sara quickly grabbed their plates and washed them, Luciana was looking at me with a polite smile on her face meanwhile Diego was checking something on her phone

—Listo -says Sara in Spanish-

—Ready? -Diego asks and she nods- okay, have a good day you two, we better get going

—Have a nice day -I politely say, they smile at us and walk away-

Now Gabriela and I were left alone, making my anxiety increase, she wasn't looking at me and I was just looking at the details of my fingers, hoping that I would lose focus on us.