Destiny & Distance

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—Simeon said we need to have a meeting, the three of us -Chris says as he's driving-

—The three of us? Why's that? -I scrunch my nose-

—Because you and I are expecting a child and he's my publicist... So he kinda wants to know how we're dealing with it

We're on our way to the doctor's appointment, Chris' having busy days but he cleared his schedule for this

—I'd love to keep this for ourselves but I know it's going to be impossible unless I stay at home for the following 5 months and I'm sure I'll be driven crazy if that happens, you know I'm outdoorsy

—I told Robert -he confess- I know we haven't talked about telling our friends but I really needed to. Found myself in the middle of an anxiety attack and I blurted it out to him

—Anxiety attack? But you didn't mentioned it to me, Christopher -I sit straight looking at him with furrowed eyebrows, he knows how preoccupied I get when he has one of those-

—Didn't wanted to preoccupy you. I, um, was anxious because of the baby thing, didn't know whether I'm going to be a good father or not—Robert has two kids already, he's like a mentor to me, I needed someone to talk to about it ASAP and he was there, the right person... Sorry

—It's not like Robert's going to the closest TMZ to sell the story -I joke trying to relieve him, I know Chris tends to overthink the smallest things and I don't want him to feel like he did something wrong- it's totally fine, mi amor. -I soothe him- what did he said?

—We had a long, long talk, basically he said that being a parent doesn't come with a manual and every child is different

—You don't have to worry about it, I'm relieved that I picked the right dad for my children -I say- you're going to be the greatest

—Picked? Children? Ohhh, so you're going for more? -he says chucking and I roll my eyes, playfully hitting his arm-

—I'm just saying my baby's lucky to have you as father

—Robert got so excited to know, he wouldn't stop congratulating me and telling me how my life's going to be turned upside down

—Everyone says that... I have to admit, I kind of blurted out that I'm pregnant to a co-worker

—Don't think Amanda will say anything -he says without taking his eyes off the road-

—It wasn't Amanda... It was Valerie, she's new but I can feel that she's trustable. I told her not to say a word until I say so, though

—Well, let's hope so, babe

—I want to tell Scarlet so bad -I squeal- I don't know why

—You two got along better than I expected

—Yup -I say proudly- she's the best

—She's one of my closest friends, so... Yeah -he smiles- you two are amazing.

He parks outside the hospital and right when I was about to hop out of the SUV, he stops me

—Hold on, I forgot to show you this -he looks at the back seat- this

—What is it? -I say looking at the blue navy bag-

—Open it up -he encourages me to and I obey-

I gasp, and tears start to run down my eyes, I couldn't stop looking at it. Three little jumpsuits on it, our baby's first clothes, first item, first everything.