Destiny & Distance

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I'm sweating, constantly moving from side to side, I feel the urge to pee every five seconds and the walk to the bathroom feels like an eternity. I walk back to the bed, hoping this time I'm finally falling asleep.

5 minutes at least and I can't. Frustration runs through my body, and I'm angry at my daughter's restlessness—I talked to her when I was in the bathroom asking her to let me sleep, but she's more active than ever.

I look to the side, Christopher is sound asleep looking like an anger and that pisses me off. How come I'm up all night and he's sleeping like a newborn child? For a brief moment, I felt the need to wake him up, but I erased the idea off my mind, there was no reason but the fact that I'm envying his sleep. I grab my phone and start scrolling through Instagram, but there's nothing good to see.

~

There were birds chirping, waking me up. Why the fuck there are birds in fucking Boston chirping outside the window? I open my eyes, frustrated and realise I'm alone in bed. I try to go back to sleep but my bladder didn't allowed me to, so I just stand up and walk to the bathroom, then brushed my teeth, washed my face and put my hair up in a ponytail.

I walk to the kitchen and they're having breakfast, all of them looking fresh and happy whilst I'm the opposite.

—Morning -I say without any energy, Chris is cooking some scrambled eggs, he looks at me and smiles-

—Morning -all of them answer happily-

—Morning, babe -Chris says-

I don't walk to him to kiss him. I just sit on a chair and rest my face on my hands.

—What is it, mi amor? -my mother asks-

—Ay, ma. I couldn't fall asleep last night, it was a living nightmare. Now I'm tired but I can't go back to sleep -I say-

—Maybe because you're so close to giving birth -Lisa says- I also had a hard time when the due date was close

—Why you didn't woke me up? -Chris asks me, I look at him not amused-

—Waking you up wouldn't put me to sleep -I say-

—That's right, but you could've had a little bit of company -he tries to cheer me up and that irritates me-

—No, thanks -I harshly say, looking away through the window-

I hear Robert's giggle and Lisa hits his arm. I ignore the whole situation. Chris remains quiet and my mom gasps looking at me as she shakes her head.

—No seas así* -she scolds me-

*Don't be like that

I look at her, annoyed. I let out a long sigh and then, look back at Chris, who went back to fix his plate.

—Christopher, I'm sorry -I say- It's not your fault I couldn't sleep. I'm just, not in a good mood today, but it ain't your fault anyways -I breathe in-

—No, I get it -he says without looking back at me- don't worry -he finishes whatever he's doing and then, grabs two plates, placing one in front of me- hope you're hungry -he winks and I give him a warm smile-

I wasn't really hungry but once I see the food, my mouth starts drooling and my daughter starts moving.

—Hormones are the worst -Robert jokes- I am a father of four which means my wife was pregnant not one or two, but four times. Therefore, I can only advise you to always keep food close to your wife -he playfully hits his son's arm-