Destiny & Distance

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—Oooh, fuck -I clench my jaw as another contraction kicks in- why did I let you get me pregnant in the first place? -I grunt-

Not to be an asshole, but I really feel like I hate Chris right now—though I know I actually don't. He's holding my hand, or better yet explained: I'm squeezing his hand as strong as I can with every contraction.

The doctor had just left the room, he came in to do a vaginal tactus -which I hated, by the way-, turns out I'm barely 4cm dilated. But it truly feels like hell.

—Come on, baby. Just a few more centimetres and we're done -he cheers me up. I internally roll my eyes, it's me who's suffering, not you-

—Don't you think we're having more kids, this is it -I scold him, but am interrupted by another contraction. So I hold in my breath until the pain goes away- I am being serious, Christopher Evans!!! This is it!!!

He lightly chuckles and kisses my forehead, still holding my head.

—It's okay, baby. It's your call.

—I'm sorry, I don't hate you, I don't hate our daughter but I just hate this. Why didn't you tell me it was like this? -I look at Lisa and my mom-

—We did -my mom says- but it'll all be worth it once you're holding your baby

—I'm pretty sure it'll be the best feeling you two will experience -Lisa says-

I hold in my breath again, pressing my lips and squeezing Chris' hand. My lower back is hurting like hell, and of course I feel a lot of pressure down there.

—I don't doubt it, but I just wanna give birth already -I whimper-

—We are close, baby -Chris kisses my forehead- I love you, okay? Thank you for bearing this

I nod a couple of times with closed eyes, I lay my head on the pillow and Christopher starts to caress my hair carefully. I hear someone take a picture of us, either Lisa or my mom, but I don't focus my attention on it.

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—No, no. Chris, go get a doctor NOW! -I desperately shout at him-

Feeling like I'm being teared up and an unbearable amount of pain everywhere. Pinches all over my body, feeling cold and sweaty, all at once—by now, my lips must be a little bit bloody due to the biting. Also, I couldn't stop whimpering, my eyes are teary and the contractions are now so close between each other.

—I'll go get it, you stay with her -Lisa rushes out of the room-

—Mi Gabrielita, hang in there. In no time, we'll have her here -my mom tries to sooth me, but at this point, nothing works-

In no time, Lisa comes back, luckily with the same doctor that's been checking on me ever since I was admitted.

—What do we have here? -he goes to do a tactus, but he doesn't get there- Gabriela, it's time to have your baby. Okay? -I simply nod- I'm beeping a couple of nurses and we'll get to it

He does something to my gurney, sitting me a little bit more.

—Do you wish to be alone while giving birth or...? -he looks at the grandmas-to-be, also at Robert, who got here about an hour ago-

—Yes -I mumble, almost breathless-

We had talked about it in the past and our families knew I only want Chris around. They have no problem with it, anyways.