Is it love? - Ryan. Dangerous to Love.

Long days

Ryan's POV.

When we arrived home, it was late afternoon. The examinations took more time than I expected. I have 6 missed calls. Of course they can't manage anything without me.
But Kate is my priority now. She needs to take that medicine. She already has a headache. I disappear just for a minute into my office to change for something more comfortable, I am planning 3 days not leaving the apartment at all. I should convince Kate to eat something as well. And I must make some phone calls. There were some that were important. I just disappear for half an hour. I left Kate at the living room,she insisted that she is fine there, she doesn't wanna be in bed yet. As I finish, I find her in front of her laptop,working.
"I can't leave you alone for half an hour? Kate. Why are you working?James told us that you can't stress yourself with anything."

"I had to work Ryan. This project is near its peak. And predictably I must miss 3 days. And I had to make arrangements. And I must make them with you as well so if we just make a discussion that would be awesome. "

"What do we have to discuss?"

"The finances of the water purification project. It wasn't decided how large of a purifying facility will be built. And how far it will provide clean water. If we don't discuss it,the place can't be chosen. We need to know how big the area should be to find the perfect land to be purchased."

It's so hard to be calm. I am getting angry at her. And myself as well.
"Would you mind telling me how much did you work over these few days when you should have stayed in bed and rest? Kate, are you kidding me? We were absolutely behind ourselves with this project. How could you reach to this point? I told you not to work. I am trying everything to keep you safe but you are risking again. You are playing a game where your own well being worths nothing for you. Stop this fucking self harm. I won't have this discussion with you now. I will check your emails and see everything for myself. And now the only discussion between us will be about what you wanna eat. Then you take your pills and rest. No arguments allowed. "

She gave up. She got sad. Fuck, I lost my patience. I just hear as she whispers "I am sorry."
I feel guilty. I get closer to her and hug her and kiss her lips.
"I am sorry love. I wanna protect you and you never ever let me. We will discuss everything when you will feel better. I talk to the agent about the sizes to start searching through lands. 3 days are not the end of the world. We just have a weekend during the week. But now you tell me what you want to eat. And you better say something or I will bring you a full plate of food."

She just smiles a bit and thinks hard what to ask for. I am sure she didn't want anything but she is afraid that I keep my word and she has to eat a lot.

"I'd like a yoghurt and strawberries. And maybe some juice. "

I smile at her broadly.
"Good girl. It's not much but more than nothing. The lady's food is coming right up. "
I catch a small smile on her face which makes me happier.
When I get back, she eats the yoghurt and the strawberries and takes her medicine with the juice. As James told us, she is sleepy soon. But she doesn't feel good. She says that her headache got worse and she feels really lightheaded. I decide to call James.

"Hey James, it's Ryan. Kate just got the first shot of medicines. She says her head extremely hurts and she feels so lightheaded. What can I do?"

"Hey Ryan. It's good that you called. Can you check her blood pressure?"

"Yeah, just a minute. It's 100/70 and her pulse is 51."

There was a short pause when James didn't answer.
"It's pretty low. But the first shot is the hardest. You need to wait till her pulse is under 40. If that happens Ryan, don't waste time calling me. Take her straight to the hospital if that happens. But keep on measuring for the next 4 hours in every 30 minutes. Hope she can rest now. Take care."

"Thanks James."

Now, I got worried. I started caressing her and calming her down that everything will be just fine.
After half an hour, she finally falls asleep.

I sit in bed next to her. I got an email from the detectives. They found the links to the company but no straight evidence. Fuck. So they can just do whatever they want and threaten us and Kate as well. I need to find a way to trap them somehow. I must talk to Colin. I just sneak out of the bedroom,I have 15 minutes till I have to measure Kate's blood pressure again.

Colin answers immediately.
"Hey Ryan. Any progress? How's Kate?"

I am thinking on what to tell Colin and what not to. He is a friend of Matt. It should be me who talks to Matt and Lisa. But Kate is Colin's friend as well.
"Hello,Colin. Kate is not feeling so well but she is sleeping now. We need to talk. They found some link to the company for attacking Kate but of course no straightforward evidence against them. We need to set a trap somehow. But of course wait some time not to be so obvious. Could you create a fake page that can be monitored? We need to make them see a business partner in that page to sell their shit to them. The address of it needs to be extremely secure, no hacker should be able to find out that we are behind it. But we need to be able to track them down with evidence. You think you can manage this Colin?"

Silence from the other end of the line. Colin is thinking. We need to play dirty and cross some lines to get to them. But Colin is loyal. He does everything to solve these problems. And he tries everything now too.
"Yeah. I need some time to pull everything together but I am trying my best. We will make them pay for ruining those lives and being a threat to you. "

We discuss some details and I go back to our bedroom. No changes,Kate is asleep as it was predicted. She wakes a bit for measuring her blood pressure but she is half asleep.
I decide to really check her mails. What she said, seemed like tons of work that she managed during these days.
And she was right. She arranged so much that we made a step forward. I need to make decisions as well that I should have done earlier. But I didn't think that the projects will go that smooth. I am so proud of Kate. She does a really good job. She is extremely good at organising things and managing people. And she had really proven herself. I can't bear not to stare at her. She looks beautiful. But what hurts me that she looks not just fragile but broken. I never wanted her to live through that. Someone hurt her and just the thought of it makes my blood boil. I could kill that bastard who hurt her. But I am not from their kind. I try to be better. Everyday. I wanna be different because of Kate. She makes me better than them. And I fight for the good. I just have to remind myself every day that sometimes while fighting for good we need to cross lines. Sometimes rules guard the wrong side.
As I have been thinking about it, I see Kate shift in her sleep and wake up.
"Hey, beautiful. Woken up already? Do you need anything?"

She looks extremely tired, I am thinking whether she did really woke up but it's just a half asleep state? But she answers.
" Maybe a glass of water,thanks. And another blanket. "

Another blanket? It's absolutely not cold at all. I check her forehead. She has a fever. I quickly check the papers that came with the medicines. It does say that it can cause fever but that soon? As I leave the room for the water, I quickly call James and ask about the fever but he calms me that it's normal. He tells me not to give her anything for the fever, her body needs to have its struggle with the medicines for her brain pressure. It calmed me a bit but made me feel bad at the same time to see Kate in fever. But I convince myself that it's for the good. I take her the glass of water she asked for but she is already asleep again. I don't want to wake her up but she was thirsty all in all so I gently caress her face.

"Love,wake up, I brought you water."
I kissed her cheeks as well, and she slowly sat up a bit to drink. She smiled a bit but I could see that she is exhausted and fever had its signs as well. It's just the first half day out of the three that we must bear and I am already suffering seeing her in this state. She laid back and I put another blanket onto her which she gladly snuggled under. In no time she was asleep again and as it was around 10 at night,I snuggled up to her and fallen asleep as well.