"NO!"
Marching away from the group, I have one last person in mind. The last time I saw Tony he was still alive, maybe he still is and is waiting to be rescued. Desperately praying I'm right I flick out my wrist and create a portal.
"Addie!" Natasha calls out as I dart from the group "Addie slow down-"
"Tony might be alive," I tell Natasha erratically, spinning around when she latches onto my arm "I have to go back for him."
"What if he's-"
"He has to be alive!" I accidentally snap at Natasha. Visibly she flinches at my tone. Biting my lip I send her an apologetic glance, "Nat we've just lost half the universe. I lost Bucky..." Trailing off I shake my head, shoving down the pain the thought of him being gone brings up. "Tony can't be gone too. I can't lose him too."
When it's clear I need to find Tony, Natasha gives me a small understanding nod. "We'll be back at base." Turning back to the portal I'm about to jump when I hear Natasha call over "Stay safe Addie." All I can scrounge up is a meek nod before I go launching myself through the portal, desperately seeking out Tony. If he's gone too... I don't know if I can survive that.
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Leaping out into the barren wasteland that is Titan, I don't hesitate to gaze around. Walking across the red dusty planet my gaze searches for any sign of life. Quill, Drax, Mantis, Peter, Strange, Tony... hell, I would even take Thanos or that strange blue and purple woman right about now. Yet... nothing. There is nothing around besides red dust and ash. Absolutely no sign of life besides myself.
"Tony!" I yell over the barren landscape. Running around slightly frantic, I scream at the top of my lungs "TONY!" Slowly I feel my hope dying as I once again scream "TONY!"
Nothing.
Still, I get nothing.
My heartbeat can be heard in my ears as I try to grasp at straws, any indication that Tony's still alive. Yet, I still remain empty-handed in my search across the red planet. My eyes trailing over the planet I find the place where Thanos sank Tony's blade into his side. Flashes of Tony's frightened gaze flicker through my mind, my own horrific cry's the only source of sound amongst the barren wasteland. "Tony", I murmur through gritted teeth. The grief I have shoved aside is beginning to bubble back, my mind has nowhere else to turn to. Without the distractions around me, I feel it rising through my chest. "This can't be happening", I murmur fearfully to myself. Shaking my head erratically I repeat the words "This cannot be happening."
Feeling my sobs beginning to bubble up in my throat, my voice breaks as I scream "TO-NY!" The tears cloud my vision, long enough for me to watch the blade get rammed mercilessly through his side. "Oh my god", I breathe out erratically "This is impossible."
I love you.
The last words Bucky tells me resounds through my mind and I'm hit with a whole new wave of suppressed grief. Falling to my knees I continue to shake my head, sobbing sorrowfully into my hands. Not only did I lose a man who had been my other half for six years but I lost the man who I was supposed to spend the rest of my life beside. A man who I've given my entire heart to; almost lost a huge part of my life for. It feels like my hearts been ripped apart when the image of Bucky fading to ash floods my mind and I release another strangled howl.
Two men who had been my entire world lost in the matter of a day.
"No..." I whimper into my hands "No..." Completely out of control with my emotions, I feel the bubbling of energy melding with my grief. It courses through my like white-hot iron, desperate for release. I can feel it building up as I sob into my hands however I pay no attention to it. All that I can think about now is the overwhelming grief I'm flooded with, unable to push it back or suppress it.
Instead, I allow it to consume me.
The energy bubbles inside of me and I let it. It begins at my core, filling my stomach and chest with warmth before it flows down my limbs, the feeling fizzling at my fingers. Breathing irregularly as I sob strangled cries into my hands I rake my hands through my hair. "No..." I choke out and before I know it I can no longer control the energy inside of me. Gritting my teeth, I let loose a cry filled with pain "NO!" Along with my strangled scream comes a burst of energy. It explodes out from me like a grenade, a bright golden light bursting from every inch of my skin. It expands outwards and I hear it topple rocks, leveling the massive metal structures which tower overhead. Everything leveled from one uncontrollable outburst. I pay no mind however to the crashes and whines which rock Titan that I caused.
No. All I do is curl up into myself and cry for the two men I've lost who mean the most to me in this world.
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Redemption
FanfictionThe fine line between good and bad is always blurred. Living the life of a fugitive for over a decade, Adeline is approached about a job prospect. The mission is simple; recover the Tesseract. Little did she know at the time, but that one decision...