Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Chapter 44

A/N: 

Lovelies! Here is chapter 44! Unedited. A few more chapters were written in these couple of days. You will have another chapter tonight and two more tomorrow! 

Enjoy chapter 44!

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"C'mon, Taehyung. Let loose. Don't suffocate yourself pointlessly overanalyzing the situations, the questions, the feelings, the things you share. Analyzing is my thing. All you have to do is free your heart. I'm asking again. Could I be worthy?"

An array of colors shifted on Taehyung's face. How could he not analyze and wonder if he should answer that question? Truthfully and without restraints at that.

"Y-yes?"

"Are you asking or are you telling?" – smirked Jungkook.

"I'm – I'm telling."

Jungkook's smile stretched a mile.

"That's good then. I shall feed my ego with that." – Jungkook winked.

"Alright, back to the subject of touching. You lied to me just now. Why?"

"What? I did no such thing!" – exclaimed Taehyung.

""In order for this to really work, and also overall, when you truly want to be someone's honest friend, you're supposed to trust them. What you give I will receive and that will be that. Nothing you say will leave this room; I promise you that as a professional and as your new friend."

"Well I promise you I did not intentionally lie. I don't know what we're talking about here."

"You said you haven't been touched."

"I haven't. Haphephobic, remember?" – Taehyung said, pointing to himself.

"Yes, I do. But you have in fact been touched haven't you? They touch you, you panic, an alter comes out. Correct?"

"Oh, I see. Yes, correct."

"Well?"

"Well I don't see how I can tell you I've been touched when I have no recollection of them. My brain blocks it out. I don't remember the incident when I come to. I just know it must have happened, because Dr. Han discovered that's the main trigger."

"Then you have zero memories of being touched ever since you were 8?"

"Yes."

"Alright, how about we go into the emotional bit. Do you remember what it felt like to be touched? A loved one's touch... a friend's touch..."

"If I'm honest... barely. I sometimes think my mind plays tricks on me. Lie what I believe I remember is a product of my mind. An imagination, if you will. Lie when I'm lonely, I can almost feel my mother's embrace, but soon it gets distorted. And I think I'm being crushed in my uncle's hold."

"Taehyung, I know you know this, but I'm going to say it anyway. Don't spend too much time in your head. And I'm saying this as a friend. All those demons that hunt you in your mind, evil situations put them there. They threaten your peace and will hold you back. The life you've had, the wrongs that were done to you, have nothing to do with who you are."

Taehyung nibbled on his lower lip as he seemed to slip further into his mind.

"Hey, hey relax. I'll tell you what we're going to do. We're going to do an exercise. We're going to be testing and checking the extent of your trust in me, and at the same time I will be proving myself to you that I am worthy of it."

"Okay... What's the exercise?"

"I'm going to come near you. I will slowly approach you and I will enter your personal space. Enough to bother you, enough to make you think that I am going to kiss you. I am promising you that I will not. I will not lay a finger on you, I will not touch you. I promise you."

"What if I can't take it? What if I panic and move away?"

"Therein lies the answer. That's how we'll see how much you trust me. And that's how we train you to handle closeness to me. This way I can prove to you that I am a man of my word and worthy of your trust."

"What do I do when I want you to stop?"

"Safe-word; give me a safe-word. When you say it the exercise stops."

Taehyung looked into Jungkook's eyes. There was honesty and promise there.

"Okay."

"What's you safe-word?" – asked Jungkook smiling, happy he got through to the boy.

"Bunny."

Jungkook chuckled and chuckled, then started laughing.

"Seriously? Is that the first thing that popped in your head? Bunny?"

"Well I'm sorry. You were flashing those big teeth in my face! I couldn't help it!"

Jungkook brought his hand to his mouth, removing his teeth from Taehyung's view. A frown was on his face. He looked red and embarrassed.

Taehyung smiled at the cute act.

"Oh c'mon! It wasn't meant in a bad way. It's quite cute! I like your smile. The teeth, the wrinkled nose and eyes. I like all of it."

The many shades of red complemented Jungkook's face, adding to it. Taehyung just loved it all.