Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Chapter 30

A/N:

Hi Lovelies! I hope y'all are doing well! So, um, 17K reads and 1K votes!!! Thank you! It makes me so happy that you guys are reading this! Every single read and vote and especially the comments make my day! I feel appreciated and I'm grateful <3.

unedited... of course. Btw! I made a new book of oneshots. The first story is already published. I hope you can show my other works some love too! the oneshots might be turned into video ffs on youtube! My wattpad daughter and I might collaborate to make it happen! Daughter... you know who you are... So I'll update you on that. 

Anyway, I will update and give you another chapter within a day or two.

Without further ado, here is chapter 30!

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JK's eyes shot open upon hearing those two little words...

He looked in V's eyes; the latter had yet to distance himself from JK. They were still connected at their foreheads. JK was looking at V's eyes that were still closed and when they finally opened JK whispered a small yet breathy "what?"

V could only repeat himself at best. He inhaled deeply and let out another "fuck me" as he exhaled.

"What the hell, V? Do you know that you just scared me half to death? Fists and punches and you screamed like- and- and- and f-fuck you? Are you nuts?"

"Well, some would argue that I am. After all, I am sharing one body with 3 people..."

"Come on, V! Do you think now is the time to joke around?"

JK was still trembling, he himself unaware if it was because of the fear or the anger. Nothing is ever normal or peaceful when V is involved, is it?

"I wasn't joking... I would have never said it if I wasn't being serious. That is not a joking matter for me. You of all people should know that by now."

"Exactly, V! Exactly! So why are you asking that of me?"

"Because I don't know how else to show you that I would do ANYTHING for you. And I don't know how else to show you that I will never EVER be violent with you again. I will never harm you again. Please? Just do it. That is as vulnerable as I can be for you."

"V..."

"Please. Just let me show you. Give me just this one chance."

JK saw nothing but pain and regret in those eyes as those words left V's mouth. Could it be V loved him so much that he would willingly offer himself on a platter like that? JK might have stopped trembling, but his fear was now replaced with worry. What should he say? Knowing that his next words or actions might either mend the broken man or break him more, he froze, the responsibility of the moment weighing him down.

He has to get out. He couldn't possibly make such an important decision while he was face to face with V as the said boy was staring holes into his eyes.

"Alri-"

V was already dragging JK to his bed thinking JK had agreed.

"V! What are you doing?"

"Going to bed, JK. You want to do it in front of your door?"

"V, I haven't made my decision yet."

"But you said alright!"

"I was trying to tell you something else!"

"Well, what is it?!"

"V... I need a minute to think. I have to go out, clear my head, just... think."

JK removed him arm from V's grip as he went backwards, towards the door.

"But JK!"

"Just wait for me, yea? I'm sorry; really. I'm not trying to hurt your pride anymore than this whole situation. But I really have to think. I'll be back with your answer."

And JK was out the door, leaving V behind, standing there, gazing at the door, looking utterly lost.

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V was pacing. He was pacing all around JK's apartment. It was almost nightfall and JK was not back yet.

JK was roaming. He went everywhere his feet could possibly take him. It seemed to him like he never wanted to stop; just go until he was so far away from it all that it didn't matter. Yet here he was, in front of his door, pacing back and forth as he kept thinking – 'No, no, no, it's not right. I can't possibly take advantage of him. Plus TH (Taehyung) still hasn't approved. AND I haven't gotten over what he did. No JK, you can't do that to that poor man. It's simply not right; even though he asked for it... Although~... How else could he prove his intentions and self control? I mean... He is asking for it himself... I didn't even insinuate such a thing. It's purely his own decision... maybe I should just accept his "proposal". And I really want to know how far he's willing to go. But what if it backfires? And it would be inhumane of me... Jeez. Nope, no. It's final. I shouldn't. He should come up with something else if he wants forgiveness."

And with such resolution, JK knocked his own door.

V leapt to door with great haste, unable to wait one more second to see JK. The latter had taken all day to come back to him.

The door opened and JK was greeted with a panicked V whose eyes looked glossy. JK supposed the reason behind it was worry. What could worry V more than getting penetrated?

JK was right. It was worry, but not for the reason he thought. V worried JK had run away from him. He thought JK had too much of his insanity already.

"Hi!" – uttered JK.

"Hi..." – whispered out V, dropped to his knees right in front of his love and hugged his legs like his life depended on it.

"You look like you just found your long lost lover." – chuckled JK nervously, in hopes that his joke might lighten up the mood and maybe lessen the outburst that awaited him when he turned V's "offer" down.

"I have. I thought you were gone; for good." – sniffled V and buried his face into JK's thighs.

"Where would I have gone, V? This is my home..."

"Did you think?"

"I did."

"And?"

JK looked at V's cute head and the said boy lifted his gaze to JK's melting the ice around his heart with those pleading, sad eyes. How broken V looked. How he wanted to just say screw it all and take V right there. And he did; he thought – 'I have to see where this takes us and how far he's willing to take this. Can he really control himself? Is there hope for us? Fuck it!!'

"I'll do it."