Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Chapter 66

A/N:

My little Dahlias! The book has over 90 K reads! I can't believe this! I know It's not a million but you know what? At one point a hundred reads seemed like a milestone. So this is big for me!! And I thank you for your time and love! I love every single one of you! Silent readers I see you! And I love you! As for the ones that always interact with me. Well you make this even more fun for me. I remember each of your usernames and I miss you when I don't see you!

I'm rambling. enjoy chapter 66!

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They walked along the shore, hands intertwined, feet getting wet with every wave that crashed and met them, tirelessly and stubbornly washing the already soaking sand once more.

The quietness of the past moments along with the song of waves seemed to lull their minds and Jungkook felt as though he was discovering something – a completely new perspective on birthdays; well his, to be exact. What was once simply a day when he was born was now a celebration of his life.

Jungkook was never an unhappy person. He'd like to think his had pretty fulfilling and happy enough life. But what he thought was happiness, only now he seemed to be understanding that it was in fact satisfaction. He felt like he finally figured it out. He was satisfied yes but never excited, never full of life, never happy. And every second he spent with V, he understood everything that he had been lacking – someone to share his special moments with, his achievements, his ameliorations, heck, everything. He needed to share, he always did. He just never had someone to share it with and he had learned to accept it.

Jungkook was lost in thoughts about this new perception of life, a sweet, soulful voice nudged him back to the moment he was supposed to be in.

"You know baby, I was thinking for the past couple of days about all the ways I could make this special, and although I feel this is special, I don't know if it's special for you-"

"Of course it's special!"

"No babe, let me finish. I'll tell you what I mean."

After a nod from his baby he continued – "This is nice and special, yes, but it's a general kind of special. It's not specific. It's not tailored to your interests and likes, and that's because after thinking for so long I realized that our relationship although true, although amazing and chaotic and everything I'd imagine anyone could want, it hasn't been one where we got to know the other. I've been busy chasing you and chasing you and doing everything to spend every possible moment I get with you, I've been busy loving you with every cell in my body but I've failed in learning some of the details that make you, well you. But that doesn't change the fact that I love you and it's every bit true as the love I'd have or you after 5 or 10 years of getting to know you."

"I know V. I know. I don't blame you for not knowing the details. I blame time. But we'll have time. We will. And I understand what you're saying but this is more than enough, it is special enough. It is the first time I have come to the beach with a special someone, the first time I hold hands and walk along the edge of the water with my feet drenched. See, you might be thinking this is something that's been done before and there is nothing specific about it, but this is a first for me and that makes it special, but what really makes it special is you. With you, even brushing my teeth is special."

A content smile appeared on V's face and it eased Jungkook's heart. V looked down and felt his heart, he felt it. It was so full that he was aware of it, he was aware of the place it sat and the heft it had to it. He loved the feeling.

"Baby, since the second you appeared in my life, you gave meaning to it. I'm not sure if I've ever been happy before you stole my heart. Heck, what am I saying? You didn't just steal my heart. You stole my mind, my conscious and subconscious mind. I don't think I want to exist without you."

Jungkook smiled when he thought of the thoughts he was having a few moments and how they matched V's.

"V, that's not a healthy mindset. You shouldn't base your whole happiness on one person."

"I don't care. I finally feel right in this world, I finally feel like I have a place and I finally honestly wan that place. And also, it's not one person. It's my person. You're mine and I am no longer me without you. And you'd better take responsibility for it."

Jungkook laughed.

"Well, truth be told, I am not sure if I'm any different from you. I don't think I'd feel like I'm worth anything without you anymore."

"I want to say that's bullshit, that you're worth everything with or without me, but I like what you're saying if it means you're hooked to me for life."

They both laughed heartily and when Jungkook faced forward he came to a quick halt. There was a low rectangular table covered with a white cloth, facing the beach ahead of it and it had beautiful cushions on one side. Candles were lit and spread around it and on top it.

Two plates sat on the table with two pieces of cheesecake, two glasses of water and a big bowl of fruits in the middle.

"Oh."

Jungkook was thinking. How long had he not been looking in front of him that he hadn't noticed this before? Was he staring at V the whole time? How long had they been walking? How far? Jungkook looked back and noticed they had come a long way. Does V always do this? Does he lose his sense of time and place around him? Only now did he also realize it had gotten relatively dark. And the candles – God they looked so pretty.

Jungkook looked at V.

"I would have asked for better drinks but I know water is your favorite thing to drink with sweets." – V giggled.

Jungkook stared at him silently.

"Do you like it?" – V smiled innocently. But then he was a little concerned with the lack of response from Jungkook. The boy was frozen and looked almost detached.

"Baby?"

"Thank you. It's perfect V." – V hummed in content as his smile stretched back on his face.

He guided Jungkook and sat him down. He took his place next to the boy.

"V. Thank you."

"Don't thank me baby. I wish I knew more so I could do this better."

"No, this is, this is perfect. You just – damn V, you make me feel so special. I'm not sure I've earned the love you have for me."

"Don't make me say 'shut up' on your birthday. Stop talking so lowly about yourself. You're insulting me. You're belittling me, if you belittle yourself."

"Fuck, I love you, I do, I love you." – Jungkook rubbed his face and buried it in his palms.

"I love you more." – V laughed.

Jungkook released his face and turned to look at V.

"Is baby boy happ-"

Jungkook grabbed V's cheeks and pulled his face to his, he crashed their lips fast enough to catch V by surprise. He didn't give V even a second to process what was happening when he swiftly straddled V's lap, catching the man off guard once more.

V detached his lips.

"Baby we're outside."

"I don't care. We're in the middle of nowhere. If we're far enough that no one will recognize you or me, then I don't give a shit. Now, kiss me."

And kiss him V did.