Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Chapter 15

A/N:

Hey my lovelies! I'm back with an update! Sorry for the long wait. I still am having problems with my tooth but the pain is waaaay less. I can concentrate on things again :D 

So... I want to ask. Why are you guys not reading the other book? Are you only interested in VKOOK? Don't get me wrong i love ship stories but i also love reader x member stories. Plus I don't just wish to write the ships, that's not the only thing i want to be known for. I hope you'll check it out. Right now it's not getting reads and so I'm not getting very motivated to write it. Although I'm crazy excited for it, if no one reads it I'm going to be working for nothing. I'll be updating that one today also, so I'd appreciate it if you would check it out.

ALSO, after this one, another chapter will be published tonight once I finish writing it. SO stick around. And don't forget it's unedited. I will edit all the chapters once we reach the 20th.

And now, here's the long-awaited chapter 15! I hope you enjoy!

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Taetae reached for the doorknob sniffling his nose off and got himself out the door. He could feel a huge lump in his throat. The reason behind it was the fact that he was doing his best told his tears back. He didn't want to seem like a baby in front of JK, he was a big boy now; it's been years since the last time they'd met and so he knew JK would expect him to have grown. But the fact of the matter is he was still 8 yet he wanted to mask it. Not that it mattered; JK seems to have forgotten him completely! That meanie!

JK spaced out for a second, trying to process what was happening. By the time his brained grasped the situation little Taetae had gone outside and JK regretted shifting his attention from the "younger". He got up and shot himself towards the door like the fastest bullet.

Little Taetae, so heartbroken, while running down the hallway of the apartment building, tripped over his own foot and fell face down. Once he sat up, he gave up on trying to be a big boy; Taetae started bawling and wailing his sweet eyes out.

JK caught up with the boy at lightning speed, his heart shattering at the scene. No sadness he's felt until now could measure up to the one he was feeling now while looking at the image of the boy that is keeping his heart hostage, sitting on the floor, crying like the kid he is, face wet with tears and a drop of blood making its way down his left nostril. In this moment he knew he wanted to do everything humanly possible to keep that boxy smile on little Taetae's fluffy face and he never want to see him hurting and crying; never.

JK kneeled in front of the little one that was sobbing with shuddering breaths and – "Baby?" – he reached for Taetae's face and held the little one's cheeks in his palms. He wiped the "younger's" tears with his thumbs, getting lost in those sad innocent doe eyes and then it hit him; he shouldn't be touching his baby...

"Oh, I'm so sorry baby, I completely forgot that I shouldn't touch you" – said JK as he retracted his hands and his baby completely broke down as he started choking like he was having crying spasms, gasping for air desperately. JK was about to reach for Taetae instinctively but the latter pushed his hands away from him, getting up to run away once again. As Taetae tried to sprint off once again, he was trapped. Two big arms held him in a bone crushing embrace from the back and Jk rested his head on the back of his baby's head – "Please! Please baby! Don't run away from me! I don't know what I'd do! You're my gorgeous baby, stay with me. Stay with me! Just stay with me!"

Taetae could feel the older trembling through the unbreakable embrace which seemed to be calming him down. His breathing seemed to calm down gradually along with the tight hold JK had on the "younger" as the tranquility seemed to take over the latter.

"Will you come back inside?"

Taetae answers with a weak nod. JK drops his arms, then takes Taetae's hand and guides him back to his apartment. As he enters, he shuts the door and turns to take Taetae to sit on the couch, but the latter stops in his tracks tugging at JK's hand. The "older" panicked once again, turned to look at his baby but was greeted with a weight crushing him. Taetae jumped onto JK as the latter held him and embraced him and carried him to the couch. He sat down, feeling quite surprised yet content, holding the boy that was on his lap, caressing sweetly up and down his back. It looked as though he was afraid of breaking the "younger" or leaving a scratch. His baby was fragility incarnate; he had to treat him tenderly – the fine art of handling the boy named Kim Taehyung.

"Baby boy?"

"Hmm?" – Taetae hummed.

"Please forgive me for forgetting something this important. I must have been so young or out of my mind or something... Otherwise I wouldn't forget. You have to believe me. I know you just came out and you might not have been present these few days but I love you, every single version of you. And I need you to forgive this stupid man for disappointing yo-"

"You're not stupid! Don't say that! You'll make me sad!" – exclaimed and complained Taetae as he got up from JK's chest, eyebrows furrowed, looking like a cute, angry teddy bear.

JK smiled – "Okay baby, I won't say that. But will you please help me remember?"

"No! You have to remember yourself!" – Taetae's frown returned.

"But baby-" – JK pleaded.

"No! I can't! Stop asking me!" – Taetae seemed to be on the verge of crying again.

"Okay, baby, alright." – Taetae drops himself back onto the "older's" chest, still straddling him, as JK asks him – "Baby? How are you letting me touch you? I know that you don't like it when people touch you and it scares you right?"

"Umhm" – Taetae hums in agreement.

"Then how come you're letting me?" – questions JK.

"You're different..." – stated Taetae as a matter of fact.

JK tries to refrain from asking anymore questions as he wonders why he's different, what he could have done to be allowed to touch a haphephobic "kid" while comforting his baby, caressing the latter's back softly with his fingertips.

"How-"

"Don't ask me." – Interrupts Taetae and continues – "You'll know once you remember what you should never have forgotten." – sternly reminding JK of his wrongdoing yet again.