Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Chapter 51

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"Come here."

It was a simple command; one that Jungkook followed, and he knelt on the bed, right next to the man whose hand ushered Jungkook to the exact spot.

"I'm sorry."

"No, I'm sor-" – Jungkook was interrupted.

"Let me talk." – V drew in a deep long breath then let go of it quickly.

Looking into Jungkook's eyes was difficult still. Of course... after everything that happened. V sat up and sincere words spilled out.

"I'm forever sorry for everything. I'm sorry I put my hands on you, I'm sorry I tapped out and failed to prove myself to you, I'm sorry I come with baggage. I'm sorry I forced myself into your life and fucked it up, but not really. I don't know what kind of love is not selfish because my kind of love is. And if it means I have to keep fucking up both our lives to have you than I will. If I'm sorry for anything it's for that. I'm sorry you happened to be the one person that took over my whole self. And I don't know if you believe that I will be better or not, I don't know if you forgive me or not, but I know that I'm not going to let you walk away without earning those. "

Jungkook listened and listened, all while holding V's gaze.

"Are you done?" – Jungkook got the nod. He continued – "Now you listen. You did not tap out of anything. You have earned my forgiveness. But you have to understand that it was traumatizing for me. You have to live with that; if I flinch or cower away, you have to overlook it, forgive it and not take it to heart. I know you will carry the guilt for hurting me just as I will for hurting you. When we were... when I... You kept up with it for longer than you should have. And I kept with it for longer than I should have. So, if anything, I am sorry. I'm sorry that I pushed it too far and you suffered for it. I'm sorry that I'm meant to help you, yet I harmed you. I was supposed to be good for you."

"You are good for me; way more than I have ever deserved."

"Don't say that. You deserve all the good. And you didn't deserve all the evil that's come your way; including mine. I'm just so, so sorry! I added salt to your wound. I worsened your trauma."

"HEY! You are good for me, too good. And I am bad for you." – V winked at Jungkook playfully in hopes of breaking the bitter apologetic mood.

Jungkook giggled and spoke softly – "I'm sorry all you get is me-"

V pulled Jungkook from his collar and crashed their lips together. Jungkook grabbed V's face in both of his hands and deepened the desperate kiss. Mouths opened, tongues danced together as V picked Jungkook from his waist and brought him onto his lap.

V broke the kiss and locked their gazes.

He cupped Jungkook's cheeks as well. Having those round chubby cheeks in his palms was a pleasure. He caressed them with his thumbs.

"All I want is you. All I fucking want is you."

V said that and crashed their lips once more. He was hungry. He was starved. He hadn't had those lips in so long way too long.

Things were going so good back than but it all came crushing down with his one mistake. He knew he had to learn and exercise control if he wanted to keep Jungkook. So he knew; although he wanted to devour Jungkook right this second, he had to go with Jungkook's pace. He had to push as far as Jungkook was willing to let him.'

V growled. He broke the kiss and put their foreheads together. He closed his eyes, sighed, let go of the tension that was building up inside him and said, somehow both dejectedly yet dementedly, clenching his teeth – "I want you so bad I could eat you raw."

Jungkook whimpered.

His voice was breathy and quivering when he spoke.

"I want you too."

V's eyes snapped open.

"Don't tempt me Jungkook. Don't test me. I just might break. I'm at my limit."

"I'm not testing you. You know your limit. Anything we've done is fair game. As long as you don't enter me or I don't enter you, I'm fine with it. No, I want it. I want it just as bad."

V held Jungkook's gaze. He grunted.

"I will push as far as you let me. If I let go, I might not realize how far I'm going. But I trust you to keep me in check. Yea?"

"Yes."

Next, Jungkook's back hit his mattress.