Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Chapter 45

A/N:

Just enjoy it in its unedited glory.

Here's chapter 45! Tomorrow another chapter or two will be released. Good night!

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"So? Is bunny it? Your safe-word? You won't change your mind?"

Taehyung giggled – "No, I like it. That's my safe-word."

"Okay then. Let's do this. Are you ready?" – Jungkook said on a more serious note, thus changing Taehyung's demeanor as well.

"I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be at this point."

Jungkook nodded and scooted all the way next to Taehyung, careful not to touch him in any way.

"Is this ok?"

"Yes."

"Alright. I will start getting closer and closer. Remember I promised not to touch you; no matter how close I am and no matter what it seems, I will not touch you. But if you think you want to stop, you know what you have to say."

"I'm ready."

Jungkook leaned in particularly slowly. He made sure to stare into Taehyung's eyes. As the distance seemed to get shorter and the inches got fewer, Taehyung's breathing seemed to get quicker. Jungkook placed his hands on the arm of the couch behind Taehyung. Arms on either side of him made him feel trapped.

"Taehyung. Taehyung look at me."

Taehyung was looking to his sides, panic was building in his lungs and mind.

"Hey, Taehyung, hey! That's it... Just look at me. You're safe. I will NOT touch you."

Taehyung nodded frantically, still panicked nonetheless.

Jungkook was closing in. His nose was about a couple of inches further from Taehyung's when he noticed the latter heaving and a shriek was heard.

"Bunny! Bunny, bunny, bunny!"

Jungkook had stopped where he was. Yet Taehyung seemed to be in a trance of calling out the word bunny.

"Taehyung! I've stopped. I'm not moving closer to you. I'm exactly where I was when you said your safe-word the first time."

"Bunny, bunny, bunny! Too close! Go back! You're too close!"

Jungkook backed up abruptly. Taehyung took one huge breath in and then let it out, letting his eyelids cover his field of vision and disappearing into a field of relaxing darkness that seemed to promise peace and loneliness.

"You're okay, Taehyung. Open your eyes. You're fine. Look at me."

And Taehyung did as told. He peeled his lids right off, the first thing to come into his vision being Jungkook himself.

"Hi." – said Jungkook, a prideful smile on his face.

"Hi." – replied Taehyung and sighed, rubbing his eyes with the tips of his long, supple fingers.

"I failed miserably didn't I?" – Taehyung came out from behind his hands to ask.

"No you did not. You did better than I expected actually.

"I did?"

"Yes; and you remembered to use your safe-word. You were lucid enough to control yourself as much as you did."

"I was supposed to let you get closer."

"And you will, in due time. Hurrying is not the way to go. Give it time. You'll learn to be more and more comfortable and you will learn to trust and believe in me more..."

"I hope you're right." – Taehyung seemed to be more transparent than he had ever been throughout the day.

"I know I am. I don't doubt it one little bit. You're strong and you're fighter. If anyone is going to get through this it's you. I believe in you and hopefully soon you'll believe in me as well."

Taehyung gave him a shy smile, pink coating the apples of his cheeks. He looked down to his lap, at nothing in particular, cleared his throat and looked back up at Jungkook not failing to give him a genuine smile.

"Do you feel like you can or you would want to try again or would you rather do it another time?"

Jungkook knew the answer he was going to get, but he had to ask it. This relationship is based on a foundation of give and take, of baring it all and laying it out in the open. Each step, each move, each decision must be discussed to keep any kind of trust Jungkook has managed to birth in both Taehyung's conscious and subconscious mind.

"Yes, absolutely. I have to give my maximum and do all that I can to use this time we have productively. We don't get to see each other every day, after all."

"Well then, let's get to it. This time stand up."

Taehyung obeyed.

Jungkook started towards him and reached him. He stood rather close to Taehyung. Closer than the starting point of last time. Taehyung didn't seem to mind it that much.

Jungkook began leaning in once more. His eyes bore into Taehyung's. He got closer and closer and as he almost reached the close distance of last tim, Jungkook's phone rang. He stopped in hid tacks afraid to make a sudden movement and scare off Taeyung.

Taehyung tried to ignore it, frozen in his spot.

"Just answer it, it's fine."

"Are you sure?"

"U-huh."

"Okay."

Jungkook backed up and answered his phone. After a series of um-s and uhuh-s, Jungkook asked – "Where?"

A few more nods later, Jungkook bid his farewell and turned to Taehyung.

"I'm sorry, but I have to cut this a little short today. I'll make up for it next time. I have to go."