Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Chapter 71

A/N:

I managed to write a chapter my loves. 

Enjoy chapter  71!!!

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The ride back to Taehyung's apartment was bittersweet. 'Later' comes sooner when you're happy and 'we have more time' becomes less true; and so later came and their time ran out. Those hours that seemed to stretch forever yet pass like a minute had been precious and both of them appreciated their time together.

Reaching Taehyung's apartment marked an end and sparked a beginning. It spoke of the last of their time, yet the start of their future that seemed more and more possible with V agreeing to let their system become, well, a system. So far, Taehyung's mind and the alters had never had complete harmony. It was long overdue.

"Let's do this now, before I stop myself and stick to you like glue." – is what V said after putting his stuff away.

"So, I get Taetae and we explain to him what he has to do, why and how and all that's in between. Then Taetae fronts so he can get Tae to front. After that Taetae makes contact when Tae has settled again and after sometime, when Tae gets used to Taetae in his head, I make contact and then we live happily ever after." - V says as a matter of fact and claps once, signifying how definitive his answer was.

Jungkook chuckled then cleared his throat when he noticed V looking at him seriously.

"What? What's got you so happy and laughing at me?"

"I'm not laughing at you. You're just too damn cute sometimes."

"Now we know you must be high. Between the two of us, the word cute is made for you."

"Well, then maybe you haven't seen yourself. If you see yourself through my eyes, you will see how cute you get sometimes. If I didn't know you guys better, I might have thought Taetae was fronting."

"What was so funny though?" – V asked after rolling his eyes at being called cute.

"You got to happily ever after way too quick. There will be more to it. You need to understand you can't rush it. I still have to help Taehyung get rid of his fear of being touched."

"Hey I know I said he won't accept us being physically involved since he has the touching problem, but I want you to work around it baby."

"Why, V? We talked about this."

"It's going to take too long. It might take years to undo years of damage. I can't hold out that long."

"Love, we have to do this right. Maybe you can use passive influence down the line to help him with the first move when he's ready for the challenge but that's about it. We can't mess this up. It's that man's mental state that we're going to try to handle. Remember that. No room for messing around."

"I get it, I do. But find a way to work around it."

"Wha- Where's this coming from V? I thought we were on the same page about this."

Lack of response. Lack of reaction. Lack of explanation. Jungkook was not having it.

"V!"

"I don't want him touching you, or you touching him, okay?! He'll try to take you from me! He likes you! If he can touch you then how can I know he won't take you?!"

"Well, I don't know V... maybe a little something called trust and loyalty?! What the hell? If you trust me then trust me! I'm not a slut!"

"I am not saying that at all! I'm just scared, alright? I am a different person and he's a different person. And I know you know that! But you see the same person! And I know he likes you and I know you like him too, to some degree, ever since the beginning. What if you – what if? Just... what if?" –V's gaze fell to the floor.

"Oh baby. Look at me."

V's eyes rose until they leveled with Jungkook's.

"I might see the same body but I don't at all see the same person. And yea I have never lied. I do like him. But that's because I love you. And you come as a package. He's another part of your whole and he will mean something to me. It's a given. But I love you. And that will not change and regardless of what other feelings might surface in the future, I will be loyal. I will. I am yours. And you are mine. You can trust that. And when you do this and when you have me, when you take me, I will be giving myself to you, not him. The rest will be discussed, my love. Everything will always be discussed. We're in this together."

"So, no working around it?"

Jungkook gave him a look.

"As of yet, no. If anything comes up, we will see. Was I speaking to the wall?"

V chuckled.

"Alright, I got it the first time. I'm sorry I'm feeling uneasy, but you know I'm possessive and this is hard as is. But I guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Touching is still a long way from now I suppose."

"That's right."

"Alright then, let's get Taetae."

"Wait, V, wait."

"What baby?"

"I want to ask you something before we do this."

"What is it?"

"You were calling Taehyung Tae earlier."

"Well, yea, Tae is short for Taehyung..."

Jungkook remained in silence for a few seconds, going over and over in his head if it would be right to ask V what he was about to ask.

"Baby? Tell me. What do you want to ask?"

"I once called Taehyung Tae but he did not like it at all. He gave a defensive reaction to it. He asked me to not call him that. Do you know anything about it?"

"Oh, I see. Yea that's because that is what his parents used to call him, but most of all I think it's that that's what his uncle used to call him. That's what he used to call me, when... I think, although he doesn't remember those things happening, since they happened to me not him, it left a bitter aftertaste. I think it's engraved in his unconscious. It irks him, it triggers him. He even used to shift sometimes after hearing it. But that hasn't happened in a long time. Honestly, if anyone were to call me by that name now, I might react badly as well."

Jungkook was a bit speechless. Taehyung's and V's past hurt him still when he really thought about it. And Jungkook started thinking of the amount of children that have gone through similar things. And suddenly, he remembered that one fateful day at that club in the Philippines. He might have been drunk but that boy had left a mark in his soul. It was what drove him to this profession.

V broke the chain of thoughts haunting Jungkook.

"Let's stop talking about depressing stuff and get this show on the road."

"Show. Really?" – Jungkook laughed.

"I'll call it... Journey to the center of Jungkook." – V wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.

Jungkook laughed and smacked V on his forehead. The mood had lightened.

"Let's get this going baby. It's getting harder to bear the thought of leaving you. If I don't do this now, I don't know if I'll be able to."

Jungkook nods in agreement. It was time.

"Taetae?"