Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Not an update - Important

Hello my people, I hope everyone is doing well. 

I'm sorry for the disappointment but this is not a chapter, just a little issue I wanna address since it came about. 

Let's discuss a little something. 

If anyone is disappointed, upset or frustrated with how slow the story is progressing please comment right here and we try to figure something out together. 

Now, I wanna premise this with stating that I know almost all of you are extremely understanding, patient, grateful and you've just been all around delightful, regardless if you were a silent reader, or if you were voting and commenting. You have created a corner on the internet for me that is such a sweet escape from reality and the punches of life. The ones who were here before I had a two year hiatus and the ones who have been here from the very beginning years ago, you guys know. You know I have been fighting tooth and nail to survive for years now. Although I don't particularly share much, you've known I've been through things and they got so bad that I had absolutely no time or fight left in me. SO I went away for a bit. I came back though and you guys are still here, still rooting for me and the story and I am just touched. Your dedication to it moves me and inspires me and is part of the reason I will undoubtedly push this through the finish line. 

With that said I can understand that some would have preferred it for me to be updating everyday or to provide you with longer chapters. I understand the frustration, I really do. I was after all a reader first before writing a single word on this site. I don't know about anyone else, but when I'm writing I play the scenarios in my head over and over, I imagine and re-imagine the moment and I might write the sentence several times until I'm satisfied with it. It takes time to just think of the moment you are trying to present and word it out beautifully. And when I have very limited time to do it, there is only so many words you can put on a page before that time runs out. Writing only a thousand words can take 1-3 hours. That is time that I can spare to the something more important, but I give it to me and you so we can enjoy the creation of something that can be enjoyable. 

I am putting this up here one last time. I am an adult. Over 30. I have a family that depends on me financially. I have LIMITED time to do this. Any extra time that I can devote to this I do. This story is being written for enjoyment. I do not get paid one cent for it. I don't have a patreon or anything that changes the nature of this story from a hobby to a responsibility. I do not owe my time to anyone but me and I say this respectfully. This extends to you. Just as I do not owe my time to any reader, no reader owes their time and attention to me. We are all here willingly to enjoy something together. 

I do not intend to lessen the quality of my work to increase its quantity to appease the 0.1%, the ones who are not happy with how things are. No one gets to be that entitled. I've been doing this for years now and never have I felt the need to write something like this. You guy have been perfect. I pride myself and my work with this - I might not have millions of readers but I have good readers, I don't mean to be repeating myself but you guys have been delightful, truly. 

I would like to keep my happy, respectful and calming little bubble I have with you guys here. If you are part of this, you are precious to me. 

Anyone else, hear this: I am not forcing my story down your throat. I apologize if I have disappointed you. I have stated since day 1 the story will progress slowly. If this does not suit you, it's not personal, you can leave or you can reach out to me and tell me your requests, your concerns and any constructive criticism that you have; RESPECTFULLY. And if I am able, I will change things, if not I will talk to you about it. You are welcome to comment, write on the message board or even message me directly. What you do not get to do is demand more unless you're willing to come and pay my bills so I can have more free time to indulge your demands. 

The only transaction we have going on here is my time for your time. 

I hated ever moment of this and I hope I never have to do this in the future. This is meant to be a safe haven, not and extra layer of stress.

Now, what I propose: 

1-We keep things exactly as they are: 1-2 chapters a week with around a 1000 words a chapter. If this is your preferred option please comment here.

2-We change to 1 chapter every two weeks; 3000-4000 words a chapter. If this is your preferred option please comment here.

3-Or 1 chapter a month that has 6000-8000 words. If this is your preferred option please comment here.

This is the time only that I will strongly urge you to comment on which of the 3 ways to go you would prefer. 

I will still do my best to have a chapter ready for you on Wednesday. 

By Sunday, I will look back at this and depending on the comments (if there are any I will make a decision). If no one comments, I will leave everything as is and assume that everyone is happy with the way things are.

As always I want to thank you for your time and apologize for taking so much of it without having a chapter for you in return. I only wanted to address this soon. It was pretty demotivating to see disappointment in the face of my effort to update more often.

Have yourself a great week and hang in there. 

See you Wednesday.