✔ The Casanova's Angel (Filipino Novel)

Kabanata 41

*Some scenes are not suitable for young readers*

"Ange.."

I cut the call off before David can say anything else. Alam ko napaka rude na babaan ang isang tao ng phone pero ayoko sumagot ng mga tanong. Especially now. Ngayon na I'm focused on my goal a.k.a. my confession to Nic. Yes, confession. After my dad told his story, narealize ko na I'm wasting my time dancing this dangerous game with Nickko. Ayoko na maglaro. Nakakapagod. This revenge plan needs to stop. I want to be able to express how I feel without any contract, without any enemies. Kaya ayun, agad agad akong nagbook ng Grab to Nickko's place. Dahil hindi ko natandaan kung saan exactly ang lugar niya ay napatawag ako kay David na hindi naman nag alangan na ibigay ang unit ni Nickko saakin. 

This is how close we seem to be. Hindi na nagtataka mga kaibigan namin kung magkasama kami araw araw. To them, we are in love. We are together. To us, everything is fake and calculated, we're bound by contract. And I want to end it. 

"Andito na po tayo, mam."

Tumingin ako sa may bintana ng kotse at totoo nga. I'm here. I can see the familiar outline of the building. Naalala ko tuloy yung unang beses na pag punta ko dito. I was irritated kasi may part nanaman si Nina sa bago kong buhay which started my revenge plan. How ironic. Dito ko rin pala tatapusin ang lahat. 

Bumaba ako at tumingin muna sa labas while gathering my thoughts and courage. Takot ako na baka kung ano sabihin ni Nic. Baka maweirdohan siya at layuan ako. I'm afraid.

Afraid to lose him completely. But at the same time, I don't want to live in what if's. Kaya kahit ano pa man ay gagawin ko to. Consequences be damned. Afterall, you'll never know once you tried, diba? Pinindot ko yung highest floor at habang papunta sakanya ay naisip ko ang mga nagawa niya saakin. He has done so much for me and most of all, I see a future with him. A future na kasama ko siya and I think once you see someone na ganun, you should do what you can to make them feel loved. After realizing all this, nawala ang kaba ko at tinatagan ko ang sarili ko na katukin ang condo niya. 

knock. knock. knock. 

.......

It took a while na inisip ko na wrong timing lang ako ng punta. Sayang naman. My luck sucks all the time. Kung kelan ready na ako, tsaka wrong timing ang pagpunta ko. Taking a deep breath while carrying my huge load of disappointment, I started to walk to the elevator. Naka ilang steps rin ako bago ko narinig ang pagbukas ng pinto at ang boses ng taong gustong gusto ko makita. 

"Angel?"

I slowly looked back and there he was with his body leaning slightly on the opened door. And oh my god, I can't take how he looks right now. He's wearing just a wrapped towel on his waist. Let me tell you, it took my breath away. I know right now, I'm staring at something I shouldn't be looking at. 

Bad Angel.

He noticed. Of course he did, when didn't he? Palagi naman siya into details kaya naman hindi ko na pinagtatakahan kung pati paghinga ko ay alam niya. He cleared his throat, cutting all my semi dirty thoughts off and bringing me back to planet earth. Yes, Angel. Wala ka sa paradise. You're in front of the guy you're going to confess your feelings to. Kaya naman I tried looking back at him without making any embarrassing moves. Emphasis on tried kasi well, my eyes followed the trail of water droplets from down under to his face. 

His handsome face. Yung mukhang naka smirk ngayon - confident on his effect on me which I wouldn't disagree with kasi kung ano ang iniisip niya ngayon. Everything is true baka mas malala pa nga ang iniisip ko. Can you blame me? Kung may ulam naman sa harap mo, syempre you'll get hungry. Especially if you have been secretly fantasizing the person you like. I'm not a pervert, I'm just being real. With the closeness we have, may mga times na I think about how soft his lips feel on my mouth and maybe on my body. All over my body. Sabi nga nila, you'll know if you like someone kapag naiimagine mo doing things to him na hindi mo magagawa sa isang kaibigan lang. 

My next move shocked me. 

but it shocked Nickko the most. 

Just like a predator attacking its prey, I moved fast, clasp both my arms on his neck and kissed him. 

All the while thinking, consequences be damned.