✔ The Casanova's Angel (Filipino Novel)

Kabanata 46

Three words.

Three very hurtful words stung me so hard that I couldn't move.

"Umm, a-ano?" Ang tanong ko ulit. Tinitignan ko siya maigi while I hold his hand gently. "Nic.."

He cleared his throat, and whispered, "Water."

Chris immediately gave him water at nung nakita ni Nic ay lumaki mata niya at ngumiti, "Bro."

"Naalala mo ako?" Tanong ni Chris.

After taking a few sip of water, he nodded. "Oo naman. Asa.." Hindi pa siya natapos ng pati sila David ay sumilip. I gave way for them, binitawan ko ang kamay ni Nic at umatras muna. When I looked back, ngayon ko lang napansin na andito din pala sila Amira. It felt a little good na binigyan niya kami ng space.

It means we all know what Nic needs - peace and rest. 

"Bro, talaga bang naalala mo kami?" Trevor asked.

"Oo naman, sa ingay niyong yan hindi ko kayo maalala?"

"Pero bakit ganon.." Ang tanong ni Chris.

"Anong bakit?"

"You don't remember.." Tumingin sila saakin . For the second time from the moment he woke up, he looked at me. Our eyes met. And just like before wala pa ring hint of recognition glimming in his eyes.

It was like I was looking at a stranger, and it hurt so bad. Pagkatapos ng pinagdaanan namin, dito din lang pala mapupunta. He helped me back on my feet when I fell hard on the floor. We got together after a couple of tries and lies. Tapos ganito lang mapupunta.

And when I thought it wouldn't get worse, it did.

Nalingat siya ng onti sa tabi ko and his eyes widened a little.

That's when I knew.

He remembered.

"Amira"

At parang on cue, Amira began sobbing. If I hadn't known and saw her anger before, I would've thought na ang bait bait niya. Na talagang umiiyak siya because her man was in the hospital bed. But we all know the truth, she was the past. I am his present. Pero ano ang gagawin ko if he remembers his past and not his present?

She immediately hugged him and told him that she missed him. Over and over. And to my horror, Nickko actually comforted her. I saw his hand gently brushing through her hair as if he doesn't want to see her hurt. At wala ako magawa kundi tumingin, tignan ang mahal ko, comforting someone else. I can feel my tears pushing, waiting for the moment they can flow through my eyes and I mustered all my strength para pigilan ito. Ayoko umiyak sa harap nila Amira, ayoko ring mastress pa si Nickko and that's why I won't cry here. My heart feels crushed but I have to be strong. I could say na this is a moment, I will look back and be proud of what I did.

Tumahimik kaming lahat ng pumasok ang doctor with a few nurses behind him. Pati si Amira tumabi to give way to the doctor. They checked his vital signs and changed his dextrose.

"What was the last thing you remember?" Ang tanong na kanina pa namin gusto marinig ang sagot.

Kinunot niya ang noo niya at nagisip ng matagal sabay sabi, "I don't remember much. It's a blur."

"Okay. Let's make it less vague, what date do you think it is?"

"June 7, 2018?"

We stood there with our shocked faces. Even Amira and my aunt wasn't expecting him to confirm what we've been dreading. It's 2019. We met September of 2018 which means hindi niya talaga ako kilala.

"So ang ibig sabihin..." Chris was the one who started but they all looked at me. Dun narin napansin ni Nickko na andun pa ako.

He looked at me and then at them, "Is she my new secretary?"

And for the nth time this week, my heart shattered into pieces.

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Sorrryy, hindi ako nakaka update. 🤗 I'm back in school pero I'll try to update as much as I can. Plus, it's near the end narin. I'm just going to tie some loose ends.

Maraming maraming salamat sa pagbabasa ninyo. And for joining me in this journey. 🥰 There's more to come this 2020. Happy New Year.