RUN | HYUNSUNG ✔️

8

rowoon was kissing at his neck softly, trying to get him to loosen up a little, coaxing into it.

''come on, kitten,'' he cooed. ''did you stretch?''

''puppy,'' hyunjin corrected, frowning softly at the title. ''i did.''

he rolled his eyes when the older kissed him again, lazily responding and not really affected by anything going on.

maybe he wasn't trying hard enough, he figured, flipping the two of them to sit on his lap and grinding down on him

''you're not into bdsm or anything, are you?'' hyunjin wondered, thinking maybe they could find at least something to take his mind off of his feelings.

''no,'' rowoon denied, chasing after his lips. ''but i can call you a good kitten, or something.''

''puppy,'' he corrected again, climbing off of his lap. ''i'm really not into this, i'm sorry. it's just,,, not working for me right now.''

''i'm sorry,'' the older apologised. ''i-i can be rougher with you, if you want? throw you around a little?''

he was so awkward as he said it, hyunjin resisting his urge to cringe in on himself. ''i'm just gonna go home.''

''you're such a bitch,'' rowoon suddenly snapped, the younger almost getting whiplash from the sudden change of tone. ''even when you finally get someone taller than you, it's still not enough. i really thought you would be fun; i've seen the video.''

the sub felt like he could cry at the mention of the footage, calling out for chan to come help and his best friend rushing in.

''what the fuck, dude,'' chan lashed out at him once he saw hyunjin's state. ''you told me you'd be careful with him, he's just a puppy.''

hyunjin felt extremely satisfied finally getting called how he preferred, it felt like he had actually been listened to.

rowoon scoffed. ''why did you set me up with someone who didn't actually want to fuck?''

''if he ends up not wanting to then you should respect that, twat,'' the male groaned, going to hyunjin and wrapping him in his arms. ''you should've told him it was okay. don't make him feel like shit for not wanting to, you dipshit.''

''wanna go home, now,'' hyunjin said again, not having the energy to lean into chan. ''i-i don't feel like being here anymore.''

''let me take you there,'' chan offered, hyunjin too tired to tell him that he didn't want to see anyone at that moment. ''rowoon, you fucking stay here until i come back.''

chan was always gentle and nice, guiding him with soft touches until he was finally in front of the dorm.

he felt incredibly annoyed, unable to take his mind off of the video and once more being filled with the familiar regret for being so naive.

that's why he said goodbye dismissively, pushing through the door and closing it behind him before chan could come in.

because he wanted to be alone for a moment, scanning around the room and rolling his eyes when he noticed jisung sitting there.

throwing himself on his bed, he groaned and hid in his pillow, screaming.

jisung's eyes widened almost comically, putting down his book and shuffling around a little before he left the room.

hyunjin cried softly, wetting the cotton as he kept playing the video over and over in his head, remembering how his face had been a blur in some frames but his entire body had been in the shot all the time, remembering every second of the twenty minutes.

and he couldn't stop himself from taking his phone and going onto pornhub, knowing the exact title.

once he found it, he clicked on it, not grabbing his earbuds and flinching at the way he could hear hongjoong give him commands, watching himself following them.

it made him want to scream, yell at himself not to do it.

never had he been able to watch it to the end, he decided to skip to it this time, he needed it.

and he saw how hongjoong backed up with the camera in hand, he watched how he still sat there on his knees, stared at himself sitting completely still with the blindfold around him.

''joongie?'' he had asked softly, the boy filming laughing soft enough for him not to hear as he slipped out of the door. ''i-i'll wait.''

he felt his heart break all over again, repeating the part where he spoke to hear how weak he sounded.

when jisung came back he was actively sobbing, watching it over and over again and probably looking so odd.

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hmmmm sorry imm late i was in a hurry and this is usually when i finish work