Addiction~Prinxiety

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(TW-Lemon/mild smut)

A few months later and things were going great. For Virgil... The younger has slowly started to acclimate to the household. He's started coming out of his shell more. He even started to rival Remy in sass and sarcasm. All of that was just... Well... It made Remy proud. Patton loved having Virgil around because he got to care for someone else now, who actually let him. Remus and Virgil actually got along well together considering. And Logan... The two often had debates together. Logan also helped with Virgil's anxiety if Patton wasn't around. Roman... Well, he tried to keep his distance. Why you might ask... Well, there's a very simple reason.

"Ah... sssshit." Roman moaned softly as he rolled over in his bed. His breathing as lapsed and hollow as he squeezed his legs together and grunted at the pressure. He panted slightly as he gripped his sheets tightly in his sleep. He'd been having dreams like this a lot more frequently as of late... and always with a particular smaller man who just won't get out of his head. "Please... please... ple-..." Roman groaned as he subconsciously bucked against his hand. 

"Fuck..." Roman gasped as he rolled over pulling a large pillow close as he mumbled under his breath. "S-So good... so... f-fuck..." Roman pulled the pillow closer as he wrapped himself around it and moaned. He panted as he started to rut against it, moaning soft as he curled up into himself a bit. "I n-need... I... I can't... Virgil." Roman's breath hitched as he suddenly woke up with a start. Sweat slicked his body as he pulled his knees in and groaned in frustration... and slightly in arousal. 

"Shit. Again... really?" Roman deflated as he threw his head back with a frown. His eyes darted to his lock door as thoughts circled his head. He couldn't do any of them. He just couldn't. Well, not necessarily. He could do all of them but he wasn't going to. Roman sighed as he checked his clock and laughed. "5 in the morning. I woke up at 5 in the morning. You couldn't even let me finish the dream." Roman mumbled with a laugh. "Couldn't let me finish..." Roman shifted only to freeze up at the jolt in him. "Shit..." Roman laughed pathetically at himself as he forced himself up and into the bathroom. He didn't care if it was 5 in the morning. He needed a bath. 

Roman sighed with content as he slowly let himself sit in the nice warm bathwater. He could feel himself relaxing as the steam filled the air. His eyes slipped shut as he took a deep breath and just laid there in the warmth. Obviously it didn't take long for his dream to return.

"Hey, Virgil." Roman spoke softly as he leaned over the couch to find the other sprawled out lazily and seductively with that familiar smirk Roman loved so much. "You seem relaxed?"

"Relaxed? No..." Virgil sighed softly as he sat up just enough to let his black hoodie slip off his arms. He pushed it lightly to the floor. That smirk was starting to get on Roman's nerves a little. Roman watched as Virgil pushed himself against the arm of the couch with his knees up. "Well? Aren't you going to help me?" Roman frowned in confusion as Virgil started to pull his shirt off. "Come on, Princey. I know you want to." Roman gulped as his body moved on its own. Soon he found himself crawling in between Virgil's legs as the younger just smiled up at him with this lustful gaze. "I knew you'd help me." Roman couldn't stop himself from leaning in to kiss Virgil's neck. His hand went to Virgil's knee as sucked and nipped melting at the tiny squeaks the younger made under him. Roman's hand moved to couch as he held himself up, his lips ghosting Virgil's skin until it met with his lips. Roman rolled his hips forward catching Virgil's erection as the two both moaned into the kiss. "Roman..." Virgil let out a soft breath moaning his name and...

Roman jumped up letting the water cascade down him as he choked as gasped for air he wasn't getting a minute prior. He rolled his eyes at himself as he just sat there trying to calm his breathing down. This was getting a bit ridiculous. He needed to get a handle on his thoughts and soon. The last thing he wanted to do was mess with another housemate. The others... They either chalked it up to Roman's reputation or... Honestly, Roman didn't understand why the three... two forgave him. Remy was actually the one that came onto him for a night of fun. Obviously, Roman didn't turn him down. Unfortunately, if they manage to ask him at the right time, Roman never will... only to regret it the very next day.

He was NOT going to do that to Virgil. The guy has enough trust issues. He just can't do that to him. Roman ran his hands through his soaked hair before draining the water a bit and blasting shower over himself on cold. He just sat there shivering in the cold as he curled up into himself. He couldn't do that. Even if Virgil wanted that. It wouldn't be fair to him. Roman can't give people what they need. He isn't worth any of it. He isn't worth the effort. Roman frowned as he let his hands drop. His tears mixed with the icy water as he hiccuped quietly.

He wasn't worth anyone's love. He's not worth anything at all. To ask would just be self...

"The world does not revolve around you, Roman. No one is EVER going to give you a damn thing. You have to earn it. You haven't earned shit. Stop crying and get up... God you can't just stop for one fucking second, can you? STOP BEING SO FUCKING SELFISH! NO ONE CARES!"

"And no one should... Right, Dad?" Roman wiped his tears away as he picked himself up and stretched. "It doesn't matter. I should just get breakfast going before the other wake up."