Addiction~Prinxiety

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"Virgil?" Roman followed after hoping to help calm him down only for the door to slam in his face. "Virgil? Mi Eternidad? Stormfly what's wrong? Virgil, please open the do..." Roman tried the nob finding it unlocked and he sighed sadly as he walked in. "Virge..." Roman froze up in shock feeling as something hit his chest and his eyes teared up looking down to find his mother's locket on the floor. "Virgil?"

"What the fuck, Roman?!" Virgil yelled out with tears in his eyes as Roman slowly bent down to pick the locket up. The older didn't know what to think. He could feel his tears falling before he even understood what he was crying about. Virgil had just thrown his late mothers locket. The very one that he had rarely ever taken off... and he threw it... at him.

"Virgil?"

"Was I just 'another fling'? Did I matter at all to you?" Roman's mind was in a tizzy. He was having such a hard time even hearing what the other was saying.

"Wait... what?"

"Did you. ever actually. fucking love me?" Roman's eyes went wide as he gripped the locket tightly in his hands.

"Of course, I did. Virgil... What's going on? Why did you throw this at me? Why are you so upset?" Virgil laughed as he rolled his eyes and threw his arms out. 

"Oh, I don't know... Why don't you ask Jade?" 

"Who the fuck is Jade?" Virgil only laughed more as he visibly started to break.

"Who's Jade? You mean to tell me you can't even remember the people you've fucked?" Roman's blood turned to ice as Virgil's icy expression bore into him. "According to Janus, Jade remembered you. In fact, many women remembered you... and they all had the same thing to say. You're a sex addict." 

"It's not... It's..." Roman shook as he tried to figure out a single thing to say. "It's called hypersexuality." Virgil visibly crashed as Roman just stared at the floor. "I have hypersexuality. I'm not addicted to sex... Addiction is different. I don't like it, Virgil. I just can't help it. Or at least I couldn't... until I met you."

"So it's true." Roman shook his head as he took a step closer trying to close the distance. "It is. You just said so..."

"I am not addicted to sex, Virgil. It's an illness just as everything else. It's the main reason I'm even here. I can't... I... Virgil please listen to me."

"Can you even be faithful?" Roman's heart shattered as he watched those tears slip from Virgil's eyes. "Can you?"

"Virgil..."

"All those times you've just left without telling me..." Roman honestly didn't know how to explain just how completely devastated he was. "... were just out there getting your lastest fix."

"I have never EVER cheated on you. I've been nothing but committed to you." Virgil just scoffed making Roman break even more. "I was in therapy, Virgil. Every 'meeting' I went to was a fucking therapy appointment. I was trying to get better FOR YOU!"

"Bullshit."

"God, damn it, Virgil... Listen to me."

"NO, YOU LISTEN TO ME!" Roman clammed shut instantly seeing the pure rage in those beautiful blue eyes. "We all go to therapy. Each and every single one of us, myself included... You fucking drove me to my appointments. Yet you're telling me you couldn't ONCE tell me that you were going too?"

"I was afraid." Virgil just stood there with this dead look on his face making Roman unravel even more. "Virgil, please. Please, listen to me. I was scared. I didn't want you to look at me differently. I was trying so fucking hard. Why do you think I pushed you away so much in the beginning? Everything I did was because I love you. Your the only thing that matters to me. I told you. I told you that night that I was going to have to get help. I told you I would. I started therapy for you. I was getting better for you."

"Now, WHY don't I believe you?"

"Why DON'T you believe me? Virgil, you mean EVERYTHING to me. I love you." Roman took another step only for Virgil to flinch making him freeze. "Please? Please listen to me."

"Roman, the point of the matter is, you failed to inform me of something that affects me... and yes, your 'hypersexuality', or what the fuck it is, does in fact affect me. And you have yet to give me a good enough reason as to why that is."

"I was afraid, Virgil..."

"I'M AFRAID, ROMAN!" Roman stumbled back in shock as Virgil yelled out. "I'm afraid. You... You had nothing to be afraid about. We all go to therapy. And fuck Roman... You told me about your 'reputation' and about at least some of your flings but you never ONCE told me why. Why couldn't you just tell me why? Didn't I prove to you that I was supportive? I never once gave you shit over anything. Not even all those time Remy and Remus would make jokes about you having sex with everyone. I stood by you because I loved you. You're the one who didn't tell me. And I'm sorry but I just can't trust you anymore."

"Virge..."

"I won't go through this again. I will NOT EVER put myself in a position to get abused."

"I WOULD NEVER HURT YOU!" At this point Roman was glad the others weren't home because with everything he was feeling he just didn't care about being quiet. He just didn't want everyone to hear how his heart shattered into a million and one-pieces. "Virgil, I'm not Marcos. I would never do anything to hurt you. I love you."

"I can't do it, Roman. I just can't. You went behind my back, refused to talk to me, and honestly... Roman, I just can't with you. I am so fucking pissed."

"Ok. Be pissed. I'm sorry. I never meant to cause this shit. You can be angry with me just please listen to what I'm telling you." Roman hesitantly reached out with a desperation filled look as he cried horribly. "I love you, Virgil. I love you more than anything. I would do anything for you. Please..." Virgil flinched the moment Roman's hand brushed his arm and suddenly the older was stumbling back. 

"Don't touch me!" Roman was beyond stunned at this point. "You don't get to touch me, Roman. You don't get to do anything. I can't even look at you anymore. I'm done. It's over. GET OUT!"

"No." Roman crashed horribly as everything in him completely obliterated. "No. No. Don't... Don't do this. Please, Virgil. Don't do this. Don't end things over my stupidity. I never cheated. I never did anything to hurt you. Please. Stormfly..." Virgil twitched as Roman's voice broke horribly. "S-stormfly please? Please, don't... Mi eternidad. Mi corazón ... Mi vida ... Mi todo. Te amo más que la vida misma. Por favor, no me dejes. No me hagas esto. Eres mi todo. Mi destino. Virgil, por favor..."

"Roman, I don't know what the fuck you're even saying..."

"DON'T DO THIS TO ME!" Virgil paled as Roman snapped. "I love you, Virgil. Please... Please don't leave me."

"Just get out, Roman. I just... I can't. Stop fighting me and just go." Roman delfated as he arms dropped to the side. It felt like there was this pressure on him that only got worse and worse. He didn't want to move. But... He knew he had to. "GET OUT!"

"Nunca quise hacerte daño. Lamento que hayas pensado que lo hice. Supongo que esto es todo, mi amor." Virgil's eyes narrowed as Roman just shrugged and tried to put on a smile, but it was very clearly broken and fake. "Goodbye, Virgil."